14/05/2020:

(half-lit)

Single Mothers - Half-Lit

That night I fell into the pharmacy I thought I was in a lucid dream Sunburnt and said, "Anything that you could ever need, I'll just think real hard about, and they'll give it to me" Jumped over the counter A phone rang and I yelled, "Don't you fucking answer" Your hair was all matted You looked so fantastic In those sweatpants That fabric felt so romantic

i woke to find your ghost folded amongst my drawers on notes tucked in my books are we still keeping score?

upon the brown brick walls under the mango tree we wrote our names in chalk forgetting rain would bleed

you'd burrow into bed you’d bury me in sheets you’d dig my secrets up and then uproot my grief

i drowned my love in waves of honey chardonnay i set my throat aflame to never say your name

now I know I'm gliding down a tight rope this train of thought is never gonna lead me home when your breath blew over like a credo it still echoes in my head when i'm alone

who would i be if i didn't know you where would you be if i didn't leave you there how did i pretend i didn't need you how could you pretend you didn't see it

all the mile long walks over blocks and blocks what you're dreaming of is what keeps me up