In my youth I used to keep anger and frustration bottled up, and sometimes I would subconsciously seek the smallest things, trivial annoyances, to explode and let it out, especially with my brothers.
I would lose my temper really quick with them. Not something I'm proud to admit. But, as I grew up, I started adding meditation and studying psychology to change my perception of things, which worked wonders for me.
Because it was painful to carry all this anxiety when young, and even though I wanted to change it was difficult without more knowledge and understanding of myself. So, what I'm saying is that we all go through something personal, and it's heavy on us because it affects all our perceptions in life.
It even programs our DNA, our subconscious and the automatic reactions we have in life. It depletes our energy, it makes us age faster and without grace, it dulls our senses and lowers our intelligence and creativity, our relationships get affected in all aspects--especially when it comes to sexual desire and performance.
The reality is that we can all change, but it takes a personal committment from you; because it's not about the world but about changing you and the mental programming running you. No one is perfect, but chasing excellence and creating better habits for ourselves leads to self-healing; and that is definitely something we all want in our lives.
