#growing distant

Even when I'm with you

For you're not who used to be

slowly at first..not even giving a hint of the distance forming b/w us.

then slowly with time..it all dissolves into the water into nothingness just leaving behind the sweetness. the sweetness of the friendship that we shared.

and if the situation becomes heated..we dissolve even more quickly drivinf us even apart.

and i think this is so preposterous.

Remember that you are worth more than what you give.

You aren't a communal object to give and give until empty.

You are not living water.

Do not pretend your water is endless.

For someday you will need a drink and have no water your yourself.

Giving is not the only reason people love you.

I love you for the way you smile when Chris says a dad joke.

I love you for the clips you send us of you spinning in your sewed circle skits.

I love you for the way you fall in love with universes of paper and ink.

You are not the body you inhabit.

You are not the people you please.

You are radient for many reasons.

I know giving makes you feel whole, I do the same.

It is not selfish to support yourself.

Sometimes friends will drift away, whether it be for a week or forever.

That's okay.

Its scary and hurts but it's part of growing up.

Be happy for the memories you shared.

But don't let their distance make you feel like you are less.

Be kind to yourself, V.

You will do great, kiddo.

Knock em' dead.

wanted you to be, but to

I’ve known you for a few years now, and over time, I’ve realized how much I’ve changed. While it hasn’t been a massive transformation, I can see that I’ve been moving forward, growing little by little. But every time I look at you, it feels like you’re still standing on the same step where I first met you. You’re stuck, while I’ve been climbing.

It’s something I keep wondering about. I don’t mean this in a way that’s judgmental or critical, but it does make me think. I’ve been evolving, adapting, pushing myself to be a bit better. And yet, it feels like you’re content to stay where you are, even though there’s so much more potential in you than you seem to see in yourself.