So this is the first post for my blog. I’ve not set this up to get loads of people to read and follow me, it’s just a place where I feel comfortable expressing all my feelings about my dad and my everyday life. And who knows maybe a few people going through the same thing might find this helps. I don’t know, I hope so. 

My dad has a terminal illness, meaning he has an illness that he won’t recover from, one which eventually is going to kill him. He has cancer, a tumour in his brain that’s been progressively growing for 12 years. We only found out last month that it was cancer, and only last week were we told there was no cure. It’s been a massive shock for my whole family to take in, especially for me because closest to my dad. 

The doctors have predicted that he probably has around a year, perhaps two if he’s lucky. But doctors can never put exact time limits on anything, so we just don’t know. 

I’m 17 years old, and being told my dad’s going to die is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with, over the past few days I’ve sort of just felt numb.. I don’t know if that’s normal? There’s been a couple of days where all I’ve felt I can do is lock myself away in my room and cry. The fact that from now on things are only going to get worse is what I think I’m struggling with most.  I’m generally a very positive person and when put in situations where I can see positives I will. But with this there is no positive outcome. He’s going to die and there’ nothing I can do to stop it, I just feel helpless.

If anyone has anything to ask me, or maybe some advise please don’t hesitate to post in my ask, I want to talk to as many people as possible to keep me from bottling everything up.

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