#gotnothingforyou

This season we had the viewers vote on who was their favorite players and the hosts also picked one person who they felt played one of the best overall games!

That Nick vote hurt. I honestly felt pretty crap about doing that. We were good friends. People had the wrong perception of us in that I was his wing man. Trust me that it was the other way around. He may have head Stef tucked under one wing but I was not under the other. I had to show the jury that I came to play and if y'all think I’m playing a sidekick role then I’m going to show you the opposite. I’m a little shocked that my plan to make myself the final 5 swing actually worked. I think that now I have a stronger case than anyone else left in the game to the jury, and if they respect me I may win this game even though it hangs on whether Lydia & Wes don’t stab me last second. I mean I frickin’ voted with the 2 people who had voted me out the previous tribal council. If that isn’t making a statement I don’t know what is.

One thing that worries me about writing the torch walk is what people will think of what I’m saying. I’m not going to tell the whole story to anyone about how I’ve played or why I voted them out because I might need that stuff come final tribal council if I get there. I don’t want someone pulling out the broken record card on me, nor am I going to suck up to someone who I really have to iron the creases out with and the torch walk is not the place to do that as I cannot get a response. I hope some people actually leak their game play because if I get to FTC I’ll bring it up myself and say “hmm look this is the exact same shit they said on the torch walk! They got nothing else to say”. Of course I’m going to come out all guns blazing. I want to win now. My head is back in the game and I’m here for the title of soul survivor.

I can’t believe we’re in the final moments of this game. It feels kind of euphoric to be here and actually remember all the players in the game in the torch walk. I hope I didn’t give anything away, I need as much of my game unexposed should I get to final tribal council so that I can show that jury that I played hard, that I had to backstab and double cross to do it and that I did more than anyone else left in this game. I mean I do think that I haven’t a rat’s arse of a chance to win this game but without hope there is nothing! So I’ll keep on hoping!

I’m a little shocked by what Wes has done. Scrap that. I’m fucking furious at what Wes has done. How could you actually do this right at the end and expect it to benefit your game. Don’t pull out any promise cards with me because you’ve broken trust one and cuts may heal but they leave a scar. This is nothing but a pure asshole move and I hope that the jury see this as exactly that and not one where you put yourself back in danger and risked it all. This is a lose lose situation for you and if you somehow manage to win because of THIS I will seriously question the intelligence of the jury. I’m fuming. You’ve hurt Lydia a lot, if you’ve lied to me and voted me out, you’ve hurt me a lot. Don’t play an innocent game if you’re going to pull bitch moves. Be a bitch and fucking own it if that’s how you’re going to play. Fucking hell I’ve no idea what is going on. I’m even more angry that I didn’t get the necklace now because he probably wouldn’t be pulling this shit if that was the case. This isn’t a move to win the game man. I just don’t get it, I just don’t.

Lawl there isnt a hope in high hell this jury would vote for me. Seems like Lydia or Wes has this wrapped up. I hope Lydia wins the challenge because she deserves it more than he does. And Wes, please don’t compare yourself to Stephen Fishbach, you were definitely not the brains to the Caguaya alliance. Lydia was both Stephen & JT, you were the ground beneath her!

Right. Ok. Hmm. 2 votes? Strange seeing as I was putting myself in perilous waters for you guys to get the information we needed and get Stef into playing her idol. Makes me wonder where my true alliance really is. Lydia said to me that she was one of the votes and she did it accidentally but the second vote is where the suspicious is. Wes if it was you then you've left me no option but to stick with Nick. Zoe if you split your double vote my options are still open. It looks like I could be the F5 swing which is a powerful position to be in. I just need to not screw shit up. I'm perplexed, but happy at the same time? This game is so fucking layered. I've never lied about my vote. I lied to Allison about working with her but I never said I wasn't writing her name down. I need to sleep on this.

I really really feel that I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I think I actually am the F5 swing which is what I planned to add to my jury case but I didn't expect the events around me getting myself into this position to happen. I'm shocked that Wes & Lydia turned on me, despite their reasoning why they did it. I feel betrayed because I think that I put my ass on the line to vote out Zoe. If Zoe & Nick had connected the dots of what I was doing I was toast, burnt toast at that. I'm trying to process who will vote who, who I can beat, who I can stand a chance again, and if I make a move am I still going to go to the end. I would hate to lose to Nick solely because he won challenges and is "nice". People think I am his right hand man but this isn't true. I assembled the JackTar trio. I rekindled that flame come F7 when I had my idea to make sure no matter what side of the vote I was on I was not going to go home. It's whether these people buy my plea or not. I feel like Lydia has had a tough time but I just have a doubt looming. If I put her on the jury I have her vote, and honestly I don't think I can beat her. Zoe/Rachel/Trevor are guaranteed votes for her. If I betray Nick now then I would be cutting a tie even though I'm showing I have been playing the game. I feel my friendship is more important than the game but I want to win. The trust wasn't broken by me, and now it's my decision to decide my fate. If Nick wins immunity I might just have to say bye. There is no point in me voting with Lydia & Wes to take out Stef, because Stef is a goat and everyone knows it. If I could get Nick out this vote, and then Wes I could win the game. If I take Nick out then Lydia then I think I will win this game. It's so much to try and process. I just cannot fathom as to why I got both votes, ESPECIALLY when I told them EVERYTHING about what was happening. I even got the fucking idol baited out. So much I have to process that I honestly don't know what's going to happen. If I have that necklace after the immunity challenge I will be able to thrash out the ideas more comfortably. I just don't know what to do.

I really need this immunity but it sounds like it’s going to be pretty hard… If there was ever a time I needed immunity… now is the time. Steven is playing cool but my gut tells me my ass is out of here if I’m not immune… I don’t know why he’s cool with Lydia again, but when I’m honest about voting for him too he treats me completely different… I mean whatever. He’ll probably find out he’s being played by both of us sooner or later.

The immunity challenge was really fun! I was really confident with most of my answers because I took decent notes throughout the video. It was tough not having any idea how the other contestants did, and then Sam announced that Wes had won immunity.

Darn you, clip #4! That was definitely my downfall in this challenge. It's alright, though because the next person I wanted to vote out was Lydia anyway. When we were in an alliance she took a leadership role a lot and I think that makes her very dangerous in the finals. She has also proven to be good at challenges. I have Stef and Steven at my side and as long as neither of them decide to turn on me it should be smooth sailing into the final four. My other fear is that I am becoming too overconfident and will end up being blindsided after coming so far.

The finale is so close it is almost within my reach! I just need to make it through tribal tonight first!

I don’t really know how I won that immunity but I needed it and I fucking came though and now honestly I feel like I’m in a pretty decent position. I’m starting to realize that Lydia probably has a better shot than me, and she actually seems to have Steven willing to flip back… I’m almost hoping Steven votes her out because I know she’d be really good to have on the jury, and she’d be rooting for me. Is that awful to say? She’s really confident though and honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if she survived this. She has some sort of black magic… It’s awesome and scary at the same time.

I've been thinking a lot. I'm playing a double agent and I've told Lydia that I'm doing it so that both our asses will be covered in the event Nick wins immunity and Stef uses her idol. As much as I don't think I can beat Lydia in the end I think my friendship is worth more to me than winning the game. We understand each other a lot, and it's pretty awesome to have someone that you can tell anything and know they are not going to run and tell anyone. If I can make the final 2 or 3 with Lydia it will be amazing that we've stuck with this from day 1, watching each others' backs, making sure if we heard anything that we told each other and exploring different plans about our own alliance without being afraid to make a suggestion of something drastic. But most of all we're able to talk beyond the game, and I think I would be lost if I didn't have her with me in this game. We're going all the way to the end together, I just sense it. 

So I wanna talk about Steven because he’s acting really fucking shady for someone who is supposedly in an alliance of four with me, Lydia, and Zoe… like… I don’t know why the hell he feels like he’s got to play this fucking double agent routine but he sure as fuck didn’t discuss it with us first… it’s kind of a selfish move that I feel like ruined our attempts at flushing that fucking idol and now we don’t have a Trevor to vote for… looks like it’s your turn Steven. :) Good thing Zoe’s got that double vote!

Tribal happens and Trevor finally goes home. I almost believed that idol was real but i think he knew the whole time that it wasn't. I'm honestly surprised that nobody flipped and voted with him against Stef. Immediately following tribal we play the "walk the plank" challenge and wouldn't you know i only get to answer 2 questions before my entire tribe pushes me into the water first!

Way to make it extremely clear that you all want me out! And then Stef follows right behind me. Hello?! If you don't want her to use her idol next tribal maybe don't make it so obvious that she is now on the outs! Despite the fact that i know Lydia and Zoe want me gone asap I managed to win immunity when i needed it most!

The plan now is to play dumb, tell zoe and lydia we should vote stef and have stef use her idol so i can get out one of those two girls :)

right now we're between a rock and an equally intimidating rock. it's still up in the air who is going home after nick won immunity. it's still up in the air whether or not steven is on our side. any move we make right now is a risk. so this is the plan: we tell steven we're splitting the vote between me and stef. me, lydia, wes, and my second vote will vote for stef. he, and after coercing them, nick and stef as well. if stef plays the idol, i will go home. this is what we'll actually do: four votes to steven. stef plays the idol to save herself, fingers fucking crossed. but we switch our votes to steven, and he goes home. if this goes horribly wrong, i've gotta hand it to them. we'll see.

Playing two sides is really exhausting. I'm currently in a great position but I don't want to lose Lydia so I have been working my ass off to make sure it is on Zoe and not her even though Nick & Stef initially wanted Lydia. They seem to have followed my idea to take the bigger threat out and I feel shit doing this to Zoe because she will get so much "I told you so"s from the jury. People think I am Nick's right hand man on the jury and this could not be farther from the truth. I've wanted him out for ages so if we both get to the end I will have lots of explaining to do. If Zoe goes home it will put me in a great position going into F5 to get to the end. I've told Wes about being on both sides and he's giving Stef the cold should to bait her into playing her idol so that they are defenseless come the final 5 vote. So many different connections have to be worked out for what seems like is going to be a simple vote. I want Lydia to stay. As I said I don't think I can win this game and if I can't I want my best friend to.

SO APPARENTLY OUR ASSES ARE ABOUT TO GET EXPOSED BECAUSE ZOE VOTED FOR THE WRONG FUCKING PERSON!!!!!!! From what Lydia has been feeding me from Steven it looks like she just voted herself out…………….. honestly if my game’s gonna get fucked over i really would rather it be my own damn fault rather than my ally voting wrong but i can’t help but feel really bad for her….[dan foley voice] HOWEVER, This was like the ONE time that we had no room for error and now we’re gonna isolate Steven… I really hope this isn’t some elaborate plan to blindside me, but at this point I honestly don’t feel like people want to… I’ve thrown enough challenges to not be considered a threat and Lydia has been taking heat for being a social threat… I’ve been trying to vent to my friend outside the game about this but I think i just made them really upset because of how fucking panicked I am right now…

Well don't I look like an idiot?

I didn't learn my lesson from when my old ally Rachel trusted Trevor and like a dumbass i believed what he said about the coin and myvote was nullified. Not only that but Steven and Wes did not do what they were supposed to do and split the votes like we planned on so now I'm over here looking like a fool because I'm the only one that cast a vote for Trevor. Steven tells me "i panicked because i thought the coin would be more powerful." That doesn't even make any sense! I am pretty frustrated right now all i can do is shake it off and win another immunity. . . . Damn. 

A new game is on the horizon. I have made it. 

OMG!!!!! I can't get over this tribal!!! 2 people in our alliance didn't follow the plan... I can't believe Trevor is still here! He should be gone... I only wish I also broke the plan and voted who I really wanted to... After I asked what happened, someone changed the subject and then no one responded! WTF happened to our alliance??? I'm just glad that I already have something set up for now... when the time comes to turn on each other...

I finally get to work with Lydia. She says she has a plan to keep me in the game. The goal is for me to win immunity so we can vote out Nick and then Stef. I have a good idea on how I will make it to the end now. I will win this game. 

It’s been awhile since I made a confessional, it’s honestly like I’ve been coasting through the game right now… everything is too easy and I have no idea how we haven’t turned on each other yet. I mean I always preached the importance of tribal unity in the beginning but it never actually works… Lydia has been getting really close to Trevor recently… maybe I’m getting a little jeaous ;P Like, she ended a call with me to go talk to him and it’s really making me nervous because the last time people started getting close to Trevor something terrible happened. NOT AGAIN PLEASE. Trevor leaving is sort of something I’d prefer, because Stef’s idol is still a huge worry and they’d be idiotic not to feel like our alliance is gonna implode soon… I want that idol gone. They won’t play an idol on Trevor. Nick doesn’t like Trevor. Trevor is desperate. He’s alone. He’s going to latch on to whoever will take him and leave a trail of chaos in his wake if he gets his claws dug in, and I feel like Lydia is letting her emotions get in the way of what’s best for our alliance. I need to be more pushy because I don’t think she sees the danger in keeping him. Even if he is with her, that’s one more person other than me that she has… and I don’t like that.

Yay Lydia won immunity. Not yay is the fact they see Nick as more competition than Trevor. What is wrong with you guys? He has made the biggest move and has 3 of his tribe sitting on the jury already. Right now I'm trying to establish an alliance with Nick & Stef which would mean I have an alliance with everyone left. But this is where I see my key to winning the game. If I can keep Stef calm enough not to play her idol then come the final 6 vote when we're planning to vote off her or Nick from the 4 person alliance, I could give her a tip off before tribal about who to play her idol on whilst we all vote Zoe sending her home. I'd have orchestrated the move getting rid of the person every old member of Florizel hates! It's a bit fancy but it's so clear in my mind that I just have to go through with it. I would have to betray Lydia by not telling her. At the same time this could put me as the swing vote in the Final 5 which is a dream position meaning I control the fate of the Final 3. I'm a tad excited but I don't want to get too carried away in case it bites me in my big ass first!

These guys are so dumb! (Minus Lydia). It's like they refuse to make a move. It's like they think the game ends at final 6 and they all win.  I've got news for you honey, 5 of you are losers! I can't say anything to them without them telling each other what I said. Like really? Don't come crying to me when they start targeting you. You had your chance. Also, one of them has the idol. Not sure who. But I have like two guesses left so I either have terrible luck or its long gone.  

I'm pissed. Trevor is still throwing me under the bus to Lydia and then tries to give out to me for telling Nick he wants him out? I need Nick on my side idiot, I don't need you. You keep making Lydia freak out at me which is not okay because I know what I'm doing. Keep being the hypocrite you are and don't threaten me that I am "not doing anything for your jury vote". I'm not going to sit here and lick your arse as I'm writing your name down. Back off buddy. If by some weird way I go home before him I'll lose it. I'm getting close to cracking and having a go at him. I've tried to be friendly but if you're going to run off with it to someone and deny it then pop the fuck off. The only reason I'm not calling you out on it is because it's Lydia that will get the back lash and I cannot do that to her. This will be the most satisfying vote. GO HOME!

I'm annoyed of being told how I should play my game. If I cut someone off that's my problem, not anyone else. If my telling the truth screws your game because you've lied...that's your prerogative. I'm not going to beat about the bush, but unfortunately this bush is so full of bullshit it's hard to cut straight through and get to the point

I'll submit Wes' confessional for him.... waaaaaaaa I'm Wes I don't have an easy path to the end so it's all Sam's fault waaaaaaaaa even tho the people that voted me out of Chief's Island are probably some of the smartest players in Tumblr Survivor waaaaaa

I've made a fake idol. I realized the centre of the old idol I found was florizel blue. So I am assuming the Caguaya one would be brown. I know that no one ever found the Caguaya idol. So I photoshopped my old idol to make it brown and I showed it to nick. I explained to him that it was given to me from a Caguaya member before the merge. I then referred him back to the immunity challnege #5 post where it shows the idol exchange. I think he believes me. This could be interesting. 

My first tribal council in a while without individual immunity and I could not be more paranoid! nobody has said a single word in the caguaya alliance chat, which makes me very nervous. Stef is the only person i trust 100%, and Steven is just below her. i know they are both voting for Trevor but i have no idea about the rest. Trevor has tried to convince me that he still has an idol that someone gave him early in the game. If that is true i would be very surprised. There is no way he would have gone this long without using it! Anyway, i told him that i would vote with him against Zoe. I am really voting for him just in case he is full of shit. This way hopefully the worst case scenario is that Zoe goes home with one vote and i stay safe!

This just keeps getting more crazy. I've heard now that Nick has wanted to vote me out but was caught out and that Trevor has now been campaigning to get me out. I apologized to him for my bluntness but he hasn't responded to me. It kind of throws my plans into disarray since I wanted to use Nick & Stef as a way of getting Zoe out. However it looks like that I'm just going to have to keep going without making a move. It sickens me to think that people may view me as a goat. I hate that I cannot manage to keep things silent and efficient. Wes seems to be the only one that understands and that is probably because he has experience. I don't see how I can win this game anymore..so maybe it's time to start campaigning for my #1 to win, because if I can't I want her to.

Trevor fucking scares the shit out of me. He says he has the idol, he decides to show me the idol 15 minutes before tribal, as though i haven't already voted? he'd have no reason to tell me otherwise. why would he tell me he has the idol if he has the idol? and we know stef has it anyway. there's no way... if i go home tonight, congrats. he fucking played the shit out of this game and played me. good on him. fingers crossed, that's not the case.

Survived another vote! Something has got to change soon. These Caguaya people have got to start fighting eventually. On the bright side they voted out Adam. As much as I wanted him in the game there may have come a time that I would have had to vote for him. And that would have been hard to do.  No matter what any of the others may think, Adam is a good guy. 

Bye Adam. Good player but I totally expected more from you. You lay down and virtually died. Don't give up ffs. Make chats, throw people under the bus, make people in our alliance want each other out! Like dude anything could throw us into disarray *throwback to mysterious idol*. Anyway time to move on to the next target *put crosshairs on next victim* hey Trevor! He's got to go. The final 4 alliance are starting to get sketchy about Nick which is not what I want. He cannot go just yet because it severs the Caguaya 6 and Stef of all people has the idol. This has thrown a wrench in the whole plan. The auction has caused a little tension because people want to go for this and that yet we're working like robots to make sure they don't get an advantage or an idol, even though that clue is probably the same as Stef's...Ugh why is everyone so filled of paranoia?! If I can keep cool, calm & collected I could be in with a chance..

Game update: Really the only thing I can do at this point is win the next immunity. If I can make it to final 7 I have a good chance of being the swing vote when Caguaya starts to eat each other alive. I have tried to make a connection with everyone left in the game (except Zoe of course). They should realize if they stick with their group only two of them will make it to the end because Zoe will be in the final 3. She would have atleast 4 people on the jury guaranteed not to vote for her. She is the dead fish. 

Perhaps my luck is turning? I won the Silver Coin in the auction which automatically nullifies the next vote cast against me. The Caguaya people scare so easily I can probably freak them out to not even vote for me because of this "special coin" I have. Hopefully this is enough to get me through the next vote. Or I could just win immunity. That sounds easy enough. ;)

I've been feeling a bit shit today. I offered an olive branch to Trevor today in a friendly way and he just uses my conversation to stir shit up. He sent screenshots to Lydia about how I'm afraid of too many goats getting far into the game. Luckily Lydia is my best ally & friend in the game and has my back to the bitter end. He obviously thinks she's a goat when in fact she's a very strong and formidable strategist. I feel like Trevor showed his true colours because it was just an asshole move. I've tried to be nice but if you're just going to use it against me for no real reason then fuck that. Don't choke on your stupid silver coin because I hope you're on the jury as soon as possible. 

Caguaya is smarter than I thought they were. They all know Zoe is the most useless person in this game but they purposefully didn't use her name in any of the answers for the bad categories in the immunity challenege. Smart. Very smart. Time to come up with a new plan. And a plan to get rid of nick as soon as he loses. 

I just won the "Touchy Subjects" immunity challenge!

I am so happy that i won but i was not expecting it. After seeing that Trevor won a 2-point advantage in the auction i was already starting to plan out what move to make once he had immunity. Now that Trevor is still vulnerable all logic says that we should vote him out tomorrow night. However, I need to think carefully about my next move.I was selected as the person who mistakenly thinks he is running the game and this could mean that i will be a target soon. I have immunity right now so it is possible that it is my time to finally make a risky move. However, i would need some support. One more wild card is Trevor's silver coin. He mentioned to me that it should "come in handy" at tribal but i doubt it is anything powerful enough to  save him if the 6-person alliance stays strong. I guess we will find out! 

I might be freaking out a little but my gut is telling me I'm going home. As far as I know my name has not been discussed but I have such a nervous feeling for the first time in this game. I just feel like everything is going to go tits up at tribal council and that I'll go home. IDK WHAT IS HAPPENING I'VE BEEN SO FRICKIN CALM ALL GAME. Ok mini rant over.

I DON'T SMELL LIKE FISH I SMELL LIKE POMEGRANATES....Jerks

Trevor isn't this your third confession today? Yes. Shut up. I have a lot to say. So this is what I've done: I've pleaded my case to Wes and Lydia to try and swing them to vote out Zoe (I wish it could be nick but of course he won immunity). I showed them a screenshot of Nick telling me he wants to make a move soon which hopefully makes them lose trust in Nick. I have told them the coin will be used and it's all we need to get one of the others out. They still don't know exactly what it does. With this move I promised them both a spot in the final 3 which I will keep that promise. It only helps them to make the move because then my coin would be gone and so would Zoe and her advantage. Then we could pick off nick Stef and Steven one by one. I've given this all I've got to not be voted off. Hopefully it works. 

It looks like I may make it through another vote. I believe the plan is to split the votes 3-3 for Allison and I. My coin would cancel one out and Allison will go home. I did ask Lydia if she would change her vote to Zoe and then Zoe would go home with the advantage but she wasn't interested. 

It's time for a blindside. Our 4 person alliance was planning on throwing an extra vote onto Allison in the hope Trevor would play whatever his stupid coin does. But this is going to piss off Nick if he's not in on the vote so I'm going to campaign for a Stef vote so we can get rid of the idol as opposed to just Allison. Both are viewed as goats even though they are both unaware of that fact. Either way we'll have to damage control with Nick.   There could be a problem here though. I've been close with Nick since day 1 with the JackTar trio alliance. But  he's a formidable player. He's gotten very close to Stef. But there is also this niggling inside me that says that going to the end with Lydia could just see me as runner up because she talks to everyone..a lot. I find it hard to get around to everyone. I feel in a bit of a pickle. 

Ok I'm having a serious case of shut the fuck up and let me talk. These people are REALLY overestimating Stef. Like wtf? Why does a split vote always have to be dangerous. I feel like I'm following these moves consistently that are doing nothing for my game. It's getting beyond annoying and for the first time I feel just pissed off. I want to take control of my own game and my own faith. I don't want to get to the end and be that sucker that did nothing but sit there and look pretty. But I feel like it's drilling through a skull, peeping through the hole and seeing a huge fucking gap of nothingness.

Today has been too much of a day. I am running on three hours of sleep. I had a final exam today, which was obviously super fun. And now Lydia has this mastermind plan. Not that I don't appreciate her master plan. It's just I wish this was all brought up on an earlier date while i had clarity. I think this vote could change the course of this game. I also think this could be vote I could look back on and regret. Our six alliance spits our votes between Trevor and Allison, accounting for the mysterious coin. However, our four plans to take out Allison instead, and make it look like an accident.  (Lydia has all these complex theories about why taking out allison is a better option than trevor, which i agree with, but i'm sure she's gone over it all in her confessionals and i'm too tired to elaborate) We wish NIck hadn't won immunity. It'd be so much easier if he had. But Stef has the idol. I'd feel much more comfortable getting her out when we have wiggle room to split the votes. We also hope she's gotten paranoid enough to play her idol tonight. We also hope Trevor will play his "mysterious motherfucking coin" and hopefully flush that as well. This is the ideal. If neither of them play it, I'll be much more nervous going forward. After this vote, they're all threats. Nick - immunity challenges. Stef - hidden immunity idol. Trevor - mysterious fucking coin. And if both stef and trevor still have theirs, i'll be a tough call for me. At least I have my Dan Foley advantage as fallback. But then again, how well did that work for him again?

I got Trevor to tell me what his silver coin does! And all i had to do was promise i wouldn't tell anybody!

of course I won't tell anybody because it turns out there is a 50% chance that Trevor will survive yet another tribal council and if he does he may become an asset to me so i need him to finally trust me. According to him it is basically a half-idol. he will flip a coin and have a 50% chance of nullifying all votes cast against him.Right now the alliance of 6 is thinking about splitting the votes anyway so if Trevor is successful Allison should be going home tonight. Thank God i have immunity tonight because i can't wait to see what happens!

I may have been a little cranky with that earlier confessional but I still believe we're messing around too much. I'm secretly positioning myself into a good place with Nick & hopefully Stef should I need a back up plan. Plus it's also great to have the idol on your side of the numbers. Time will tell.

Dang it man. I feel like such a fake shit. I'm discussing with Allison how I'm offering her an olive branch how I'd be willing to vote with her come next vote should we both survive knowing I wrote her name down. I'm just blatantly lying to her and I feel shit for that reason. These people are actually so nice and I feel crap that I haven't tried to get to know them. Like fuck sake why am I such an idiot. I've missed an opportunity to play hard in this game just because I've been comfortable. Just ugh. Sorry for the 39324 million confessionals today