#goodsuffering

Dear Glass Screen, It is very warm outside today where I am. Inside it is very cool. I love being inside. No one pressures you. Nothing is stressful. It is very comforting to be somewhere that is not stressful. My brain is dealing with a lot of words and problems that other humans have.   I feel like typing down these words and letting someone else hear the words helps. Even if they click on it for only a second, that brings me some comfort. I wrap myself in comfort now, not wanting to let go of the comfort. The world outside is humid, and I am here now.    My eyes have been trying to focus for a while now. Sometimes they close shut, and then they open. It is very hard to keep them open when there is light.    The people I know are always far away. I respect that. They always say that they are busy when I ask them to drop by. I respect that. I shouldn't be angry at them. They should be angry at me. I am a good people person.    The red haze mixes with black And I can't see straight sometimes It gives way to the deep blue And then the other colors go Then I drown in the deep blue. I feel comfortable in the deep blue. It makes me feel appreciated. When I'm in the black though, there is nothing. 

That feeling is good