#good enough..

So every time I'm watching a good animated show or series, I just don't enjoy it as much as I used to. Instead of just being normal and watching it, I feel...jealous? I don't know- I just feel discouraged?

I assume its because I've always wanted to be an animator and create a show of my own, its just always been a dream of mine.

Maybe I feel bad about seeing really good shows because deep down I feel like I'll never be good enough to do my own. Like...like I'll never reach my dream and even if I did, no one would like it.

I often fantasize about episodes for my own show like every night but I just can't help but be discouraged. I often think of just giving up since I think I'll never accomplish my dreams.

So I just find myself being sad and discouraged, the same thing goes for other artists on this site! I see really good artists and they get sooo much fanart and thousands of follows...And I can't help but feel sad! Of course I'm happy for their success and I cheer them on, but at the same time, I feel like I will never be as good them. I just get...I dunno- Just jealous.

I DONT LIKE TO BE JEALOUS! I don't know why I'm like this rather than just enjoying people's success!! I don't MEAN to be jealous!