#goingtodelete

She's talking to him a lot. More than I expected, more than the others. I think he's interested, but she's not sure yet. I'm happy for her. All she talks about is him, all we do is try to hangout with him. He's talking to me, and we talk about if her. I'm not complaining... Yet. They meet up. We hung out with him, I like him, he's a good guy. He likes her a lot. It's really cute. She's starting to back off, she's a little scared. She doesn't knew if she like his habits. She doesn't know. He's getting worried. Talking to me about it. I don't know what to say. I can't see them working out. But he's my friend now too. I like him. Help.

Kinda sorta extremely sick of being the disposable friend. You can use me whenever you need, and dump me as soon as you're done. Tired of being used and underappreciated. I get close to people and bond with them, and then they ditch me for someone else, or just up and stop talking to me. As if I was in the state for that. I can't handle this.... Really needed to get this off my chest. Don't want anyone who knows me hearing about this . I'm not looking for a pity party.

Everytime, my brain isnt occupied. I fall. Its cold in here, in my Chest filled with nothing. Shivering, every inch of my body Shaking violently. Spasm of Nothing. I cant feel anything anymore I cant feel anything. Anymore lovr I have is gone.