#godknew

I would like to thank @willsmith for donating the #fireworks for the 4th celebration here in #NewOrleans. When I heard it was canceled due to lack of funding I pretended not to care, but #GodKnew. https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ1hBqmjoQI/?utm_medium=tumblr

“Who knew one day You’d have to Call Me to get my mind Right”- @nickid_si4tr #GODKnew #ThankYou #GuardYourThoughtsYoungHomie #BlowUp #WSGWTD #LouisianaKings #HeavyIsTheHead #ImTheRightNEGU #ItWasWritten #DontStopHelpingTheYoungHomies #LLL #LongLiveRatchetLife #SleepisForTheRichTV #TheMarketStreetChapter (at Downtown Shreveport, LA) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDwBIqoAu8P/?igshid=1ipez6y1yxj1v

The young man with an old man’s soul. #godknew #mybestfriend #weread #findlaughter in all you do. #butdidyoulive #sur #imblessed @ciscovoncore i love you. https://www.instagram.com/p/B2JzFNbJoZ-2InTOQBLA7Cvrc_FT5WP5crBRK00/?igshid=97uh3vo3thrn

It's So surreal that we are going to have a new baby at the end of Summer. Sometimes it feels like I'm just dreaming. . I never thought I would have the chance to be a mom. But God knew what I needed! . Yes, this is my 7th pregnancy I had a tubal pregnancy before Fay Lynn and lost 2 between Fay and Aiden, after Aiden I lost one in November and soon after we found out we were pregnant again. . All my children are rainbow babies I'm truly blessed to be a mommy to my amazing kids. I can't wait to hold this little sweet girl for the first time. . . . #pregnancyaftermiscarriage #rainbowbaby #godknew #godisgood #mumlife #imblessed #youalreadyare #fitpregnancyjourney #18weekspregnant #momtobe #fitgirl #strongwoman https://www.instagram.com/p/Bwheg1dBI2I/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4tqx43cdn7y4

#godknew #toopowerful #icould #domath #saturdayvibes https://www.instagram.com/p/BshkQTqllIo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=mwgheyjufngv

Their love for me is felt. #myhairmatchesyourblouse #yourblousematchesmyhair #mylife #godknew #keepmovingforward #wegetthroughitall #mytribe #redhairblackhairblackman #prayer #churchday #hemetcommunity #thisishome https://www.instagram.com/p/BqDX0peliQ0xRnZ80JwRI2eWpZx4lwQRJY3PW40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ln83nctuqkp4

It wasn't easy. It wasn't just getting back up and walking the next day. It was almost 3 months of pain. Not just physically, but emotionally too. I was a totally different person. I was angry all the time, didn't wanna even try and do anything because I knew I just couldn't do it. I sat on my couch for the entire time. Just waiting and wanting to at least get up and cook my own food, take care of my babies, and take a shower without any help. I wondered why I had to go to the creek that day to have fun and cool off. Why did God send me down there if he knew I was going to be broken afterwards? Now I understand why. He wanted me to be a better person. Be a better mother. Not being able to do anything at all that entire time made me realize how much I was really missing. I don't want to spend another second not doing as much as I can with my children. I don't care the pain it will cause me, or how tired i may get from trying to keep up. God knew what he had to do for me to come back to reality. So I simply thank him for breaking me so I can build myself back up better than I was before.