i feel like sometimes, i should just open my heart. but i can't cause it just hurts too fucking much when that person doesn't give a shit. i hate how relationships have all these stages and shit, and most of them end up in heartache. like wtf. you either break up, or get married for life. idk it's all so confusing to me. everything is going great, but someone always ends up getting hurt in the end. it just really sucks.

idk. maybe i'm just hating myself for being a hypocrite. if i don't like to share, why should i make that person share too? like wtf? why am i so bothered by this...

but they're probably going to bail... or i'm going to bail. if i felt that the other person was going to bail, i wouldn't want to share my deepest secrets either. i'm scared that what i have to offer wouldn't be enough for you. i'm scared that you're just going to waste all of your time and effort just because of my stubbornness. ugh can we just keep it light and simple? idk why this shit always happens. it's fucking annoying.