“gender is a game and i’m using cheat codes”

that said, it's pretty frustrating to have that forced on me as the only 'valid' way to experience gender, because I don't experience gender that way. I feel miserable when strictly conforming to 'man' or 'woman', because I'm not strictly either of those things. I think that trans allies and even other trans people don't realize how crushing it is to be something else, a mix, neither, etc. in a society that's fucking allergic to gender diversity that doesn't adhere to the boxes. and what really sucks, is that you would expect other trans people at the very least to understand what it's like to have a gender forced onto you, but the moment it comes to nonbinary and multigender people, there is no such understanding.

and then people like me have to listen to binary, monogender, and gender conforming trans people talking about us like we don't exist, are 'less trans', 'less valid' and 'less serious' than they are, because despite living a reality that transphobic cis people also sneer at, they still don't understand what it's like to be us. us, the people who suffocate within the acceptable boxes and just want to be free to live our lives like everyone else.

I'm one of the girls, I'm a girl's girl and I'll cry if you say I'm not, but I'm not a girl's girl.

I'm also Just Some Guy, y'know? I'm a little weirdo, a freak, a little girl with dirt on his knees and fire in his eyes.

I'm her husband but I'm also her girlfriend.

I'm neither a man nor a woman but a weird recluse writer who lives on the edge of a cliff where its always stormy.

I dress like an alt older brother from an early 2000's movie but also like a 90's lesbian (sometimes it's the same outfit).

In conclusion, labels are weird. I'm a boyfriend and a girlfriend, a husband but not a wife, a girl but not a woman, a guy, a man, a friend.

All that being said, he/him and they/them are still very much my pronouns (never she/her).