#gluaisfaocilleach

So. I have been staring at this for the longest time, and I have seriously considered just deleting it, because it´s awfully rude, but then I realized it´s also very cowardly because I give you the opportunity to know something about my relationship with a wonderful person and all you can do is insult her and hide behind a grey mask.

I wished that you would have at least come up with a creative insult, because then Clara and I could have sat here, laughing at it, but this was you´re just coming across as really pathetic. With one thing you´re right though, I did find her, and I couldn´t be more grateful that I did. It wasn´t so much as a coincidence, but fate, or at least I like to think so. I am a friend of logic, and I always have been, but with Clara…things are different. It´s as if she brings that little bit of magic into my life, that magic that everyone should experience. She´s the most beautiful woman I have ever known and I tell her that every day. I´ve always seen her as that, and the moment I first looked into her eyes I knew that I was head over heels in love with her. It was so…new, because there was someone who was pretty, and clever, and witty, someone who was willing to just sit with me and listen to my ramblings.

I remember that day like it was yesterday. The day I had taken her up to the roof and she asked me ‘Davey, what´s the meaning of life?’ and of course I told her that there wasn´t an easy answer to it. It was the day I told her how I felt though, and that, in her eyes, I could see more than what meets the eye, that I could see a universe of stars and hidden mysteries, mysteries I would love to solve if she let me, and thank God she did. I remember kissing her for the first time, picking her up and spinning her around like I wasn´t meant to do anything else. I loved her, and I still do. Somehow I was lucky enough to have her love me back, still up to this day, and I wouldn´t trade my life for a billion dollars or anything that man can ask for, because I have everything I need right there in my arms every night when I go to sleep. Injuries and scars, and all these things, they are part of who we are, and believe me, I have enough of those myself, even if they´re not physical, but they do not define who we are.

Clara is the most wonderful, loving and grateful person I have ever met and anyone who has the privilege to know her can consider themselves lucky. I must have done something right in my past life, if such a thing exists, because she loves me back and that´s all that I could ask for.

And…if I think about it right now, then that might be the actual meaning of life. It´s not about what you achieve, it´s about finding happiness. About finding that one thing, or that one person, that makes your heart go crazy and that makes you drop whatever you´re doing just so you can take them in your arms and kiss them and if you´re lucky enough to find that person, then life has a meaning, because you are living it to be with the person you love and to make things right for them, and I am living the happiest life, happier than I could have ever imagined I would be, and I am grateful for that, and sorry if you haven’t found that person yet, but I won´t let one simple message take away a piece of my, of our happiness, because I´ve have found Clara, and I´m not giving her back.

Send me ‘Goodbye’ for the last voice message my muse leaves for yours before they die

"Hey babe? It´s me, Davey. I´m at the bank and the queue is quite long, so I thought I´d give you a call before I get bored to death. I have no idea why nothing´s moving, but I guess that happens when you don´t come prepared. You need to know exactly what you want when you go to the bank…but anyway, I´m rambling. I just wanted to check up on you and the little one, I´ve been planning on picking up that favorite ice cream of yours when I get home. It´s probably going to be late though, since I´ve still got lots of things to do. Finish the financial stuff, do the grocery shopping, ohh yes don´t forget to buy the poptarts, but not the cherry ones because they make you throw up, and then I´ve got to pick up the dry cleaning and get some more paint from the store for the nursery, let´s just hope they have the right color…I´m sorry, this is turning into a list of things I still have to do, which isn´t very clever since it´s going to be on your voicemail and not where I need it, but anway. I should probably be writing it down, which is something I can do while being in this queue. See? Even when you´re not there you find a way to help me. *chuckles* Alright, I´ll stop boring /you/ to death with my rambling now, say hi to the little one, will you? I know I´ll be home soon but I don´t want them to think their daddy isn´t around, even if they´re still in your belly.  I love you and I´ll see you tonight!"

Davey looked up at Clara, furrowing his brows. "Never to tell...what, exactly?" he then asked.

WhAT CAN I GET YOU FOR FREE OVER INTERNET bc i have no money or time but birtThDAY

❝How many papers did ya ask for, doll?""❞

Hmmm. I don't know, really. I'll admit it: I don't know.

But the one thing that's certain is that it's a process. It's long, it's arduous, there will be setbacks. Healing hurts sometimes, and you have to accept that you may still make mistakes. You just keep trying and try not to guilt yourself, because focusing on what you've done wrong instead of what you can do to improve doesn't help.