#glendyyy

The year before the pandemic, I was in senior high school. I met someone who soon became my best friend. A few months into our friendship, she approached me one day with excitement in her eyes as she introduced me to this song, "Phoenix" by FallOutBoys. Soon after the song ended, she told me the song reminded her of me. She said I was a phoenix and that I embodied the element of fire in my personality.

I was extremely competitive at the time, passionate about what I do, persistent, strong-willed, headstrong, and very expressive.

I thought I knew who I was... But somewhere around the time of the pandemic, I lost myself. The moment I moved to the city for college, I was bombarded with a lot of bad news while I was finding myself.

Back then, I didn't know what burnout was. And now I do... I lost my spark. I lost the fire in my eyes. I'm in the embers, and I'm afraid to end up with just a tray full of ashes.