#girlpool

im gender non conforming for a lot of reasons but one of which is definitely the idea of being "lady like". i wasnt allowed to wear leggings growing up or allowed to man spread, or not wear a bra, or something that shows a bra strap, or have messy hair, or play in the mud and it all rooted from me being afab. my brother never had the same rules since he was a boy. i always envied him since his toys were superheros while mine were fucking play makeup. i dont even wear makeup in my present, not even a chance little me would play with that shit. i wanted powerful superheros too.

on god everyone in my fuckass old school called everyone a slut for everything and everyone had some kind of negative reputation over something fake. there was a group chat dedicated to bullying that my gf at the time was IN and my gf would make up shit that i was pregnant. i was a virgin too wtf!! uh yeah but thanks to being afab my existence is sexualized and people will forever feel to safe sexual harassing me as "flirting". if one more stranger touches my ass out of no where or i get fucking cat called in my own neighborhood im becoming a misandrist

ive never really worn makeup, or shaved my legs, or wore perfume, or had long hair my whole life. being pretty never felt like my purpose or even a value of mine. something that has been important to me is being successful and going to school and working hard and stuff and im hella afraid itll be for nothing snd ill end up with a partner thats cheating on me after years together and expects me to do all the cooking and cleaning and pressures me to have kids and ughhhhhhhh like why

men who i thought were my friends will often turn on me and ask me out and then be weird sfter i reject them. sometimes ill meet someone new and theyll very quickly show me they have no interest in me as a person and only see me as a romantic interest.

awful things happen to people all the time because society doesnt care to prevent it, and then after the awful thing happens its all ur fault cuz u shouldve expected it