#gingermcfuzzleton

((so where have i been?

well, the short answer is…..nowhere, really. i’ve been regularly posting/reblogging stuff on my main blog but, well, to put it bluntly, 2018 wasn’t that great for me, as i’m sure a number of people would say the same lmao

a little list of stuff that happened to me in 2018:

my pc broke down due to an os corruption, and it took 2 months to replace

i got into a relationship. i was very happy! it was my first time being in a relationship in 7 years, and i finally felt good about myself

3 months later, literally to the  d a y , my heart was broken. my boyfriend literally broke up with me on our 3 month-iversary. lmao.

i spent the next couple months being in a horrible depression. i had horrific anxiety. genuine suicidal thoughts for the first time in like 10 years. i ate very little, because i just couldn’t, losing nearly 10 pounds over the course of a week and a half (which isn’t healthy, if you couldn’t tell, lol). it was such a rapid change that i genuinely had trouble recognizing myself in the mirror. it took me 3 weeks to get my appetite back

the next couple months were spent mostly recovering. my ex hasn’t talked to me since nearly the end of last september, despite saying he wanted to remain friends. whatever, lol.

one of my cats passed away in mid-november, which sucked, but she was old and i believe she was dying of liver or kidney failure, so it’s good she’s not suffering anymore. she’s buried next to our other cat who died around the same time the year before. now it’s just my little tiny 12 pound chunker that we’ve got left lmao (my mom sometimes talks about kittens she’s seen on websites for local shelters tho so…hmmmm…..)

i’m doing better though. i had a load of icon commissions i did for people on steam recently! literally, all of those commissions i did in the past few weeks have been more than what i did in all of 2018. and i’m grateful for that! it’s partially because i made friends with a small-ish tf2 youtuber who commissioned me for an icon/art for his youtube banner hehehe

that’s about it. 2018 was just sucky, to put it shortly lmfao. both in general, but stuff that was specific to me as well. but anyway, thanks for listening to me rant about stupid stuff that happened last year. hopefully i can get back to this blog on occasion, i enjoyed it when i was active with it haha))