#gettingoldsucks

(Disclaimer: This title is not meant to offend human body and mind; just take it as a ranting )

I’m too tensed now... feel like killing and crying.

There are many things going on with me mentally, emotionally and physically.

Don’t know where to start from...

First my skin was never misbehaving but since Jan 2020 skin discoloration, dryness, redness and what not!

*Feel like dying*

I don’t feel under my skin, it’s like I’ve worn the wasted skin of someone’s so sick and dead... fish!!!

My face is like epitome of skin variables (dermatologist would be happy to experiment on my skin first haha -_- )

The odd colours are so visible; it would have been better if I had rainbow skin (promotion of LGBTQ)

Comes my hair... wow! (Never thought I’ll be dealing with bad things all of a sudden but yeah life sucks)

So my hair is falling like I’m a cancer patient while chemotherapy... every fucking time I touch my hair or brush it. The flow of hair falling from root is so easygoing, as if I’ll wake up bald next day (to be honest I feel like getting bald because the way it’s falling I think I’ll lose the hope of dealing with it; I might do it soon *fingers crossed* need guts).

Furthermore, my hair is turning silver (sounds so rich yo! I can sell my silver hair and become the richest even if I have to go bald *thanks to my hair falling syndrome* )

My hair is black and white, just like my mood *wooooooooow*

Just like Ying Yang (black is for evil and white is for good, that’s why most of people at young age act evil *evil head*. Prrff! That was legally lame shit to say)

It’s like my hair is supporting me becoming rich and at the same time getting rid of me (what an insult).

I seriously need hair insurance!!!!

I hope there are ways to flaunt my jewel (Bitch I got silver hair B| ).

Hey are you wise enough?

Yeah I’m becoming wise because my wisdom tooth is erupting out of the gum which so painful that I can’t chew air!

This is happening lately

Eruption of WISDOM out of TOOTH!

It’s more painful than being on periods (at least I can eat and make myself calm during periods but dude this tearing of gum is not even letting me fake smile or breath or sleep)

It’s making me sad and depressed as if I’m the saddest being on earth that I can’t handle the pain of extra tooth (Sheh... I should be ashamed of not appreciating the human embodiment )

Ahhhh! Feel like burying myself so deep into the earth!

My body is decaying (and thinking of decaying makes my mind to decay as well)

These things are happening all together, makes me feel I'm not a normal human being.

Too young to die *sympathetically pathetic*

Period.