Last day of mobility
All my shit! I'm nervous now. Like feel it in the pit of my stomach nervous! I'm sitting here, with Jay-Z and Beyoncé (cats) staring at me, I think they know they won't see me for a while, or that's what I con myself into thinking. But I'm sitting at HBs house for the last time for months and all I can think is, why the hell am I sitting down? I should be out playing in the snow, I should be up and walking about, I should be a little more mobile as its my last day of real mobility! This time tomorrow I will have been in the hospital 3 hours, as I don't have a set time for surgery I could still be sitting about waiting, but I could Also be under the knife! Scary! Loads of people have surgery everyday and no doubt they feel the same apprehension. I've tried to distract from the actual op and focus on being back to normal and it worked, until today! Today I feel like I've never felt! I'm not usually nervous about anything, because I'm supes brave and confident, but I can't boss this by just being my awesome self. I am completely at the mercy of the surgeon. I will be fully out of control. Bllllrrrrrrrrp control freak kicking in!!! Maybe that's why I'm so nervous! But I'm being optimistic and like, yeahhh I'm going to have a little nap and kick this ops shit in the face! Not that I'll be doing anything during, but I'm going to be the best at doing nothing!
