the first time anise shoved their hand inside a patient they didn’t care what could happen to them, but it made their teacher decide they couldn’t be taught out of their shortcomings which led to them leaving their clan.

now they DO care what happens to their patients, but they still have this morbid, inappropriate fascination with the feeling of people’s insides, only now there’s also some fear and anxiety and regret and something like self-hatred mixed in with the curiosity, all of which spaghetti finds supremely annoying.