#get him

Oli is the wrecking ball in Ryan's life. He spends time with him and then tips into religious frenzy the minute he's out of sight. Everyone; colleagues, fans, showrunners, networks, ex-wives, your dad, the fucking co-star himself, everyone can see it. And you can't stop them seeing it, no matter how hard you try. It must be absolutely exhausting and bone crushing to hold yourself outside of the undeniable truth the way Ryan does. No wonder he trains his body so hard, trains his mind.

But strength can't save you man. You need a little softness in your life. Belly rubs and too-hot cuddles in a sweaty Paris hotel room. Funny how the most claustrophobic, stifling heat you'd ever experienced was simultaneously the free-est and easiest you've ever felt?

And now you're back, loving the Lord and not giving into temptation. But just you wait. Its a matter of weeks till you're back on set. Everyone knows. It will be the same old story. How long before you 'run in' to Oliver again? Hmmm??!? Hmmmmmmmm!?!?!?!?!

You’re in his head ms thing