im not even a trans woman and i look so fucking horrendous and ugly. im neurodivergent as fuck so i donāt know how to take care of my body properly without forgetting or my interests getting in the way. At the age i was supposed to be my prettiest, my shitty dominican dna cursed me with an ugly mustache, slow metabolism, facial acne, and like the ugliest boobs Iāve ever seen. I fucking despise my dad for putting me through so much for that alone, and he doesnāt even come around to help. He avoids paying my mom child support (which i need btw because im ND and I want to get lessons and actual good clothing)
In all due seriousness, all of the other girls my age are literally in normal schools and passing their shit with flying colors while developing a few talents. I canāt even complete regular tasks and im in a school full of weirdos and a boy that i used to like but stopped after finding out how fucking ugly he looked and how much he objectified me (he had a p0rn addiction, had a b3lly fetish, and is basically the corniest dude on earth, even my mom doesnāt like him)
I hate my heritage for giving me such a disadvantage, not only genetic wise, but also economically. (my dad was an immigrant, and my momās parents were too.)
Itās just every time i try to be better i look r3t4rd3d as fuck and i feel as if god as a whole entity is trying to hold me back from achieving my goals because Iām destined to be inferior to everyone
I donāt know how people (ESPECIALLY WHITE PRIVILEGED REGULAR PEOPLE) always argue that theyāre a certain complicated form of a āgenderā trying to find reasons to be mad when thereās an obvious fact that im literally the ugliest girl in the world.
If thereās a god, why did they give me this ugly body as a teenage girl? Eh? Did my stupid personality completely align with how im supposed to look? Why do all of the radfems and non radfems have pretty bodies but im just a slab of fucking cells? I literally got made fun of in a discord server for the way my boobs look and every other girl gets to be pretty with perfectly round and perky ones.
anyways, sorry for the vent. Iām just so frustrated with how I look and how normal every kid around me is. If I wasnāt so ugly, I wouldnāt be attracting the weirdest fucking creeps ever.