#gender envy..

I gender envy guys with long hair bc they can pull that off still looking like men,, and when i do it i just look like a pretty girl,, i don't want that,, it's okay if I'm pretty (i still don't understand completely if pretty is THAT gendered in english tbh but still) but like,, can i at least be a pretty boy? :,) when my sister bought a wig i put it on and i immediately got very red and cried a little. And i was like "let me take it off" but my mother kept repeating "but it looks so cool, you look so pretty (bonita) D:" i don't want to be bonita mom, wearing this wig was painful, i want to be bonito,, just that