hi i have another spec ramble, what if. at the wedding reception. after everything is resolved and chimney's safe and they've said their vows and everyone's having fun. buck and tommy are dancing. some popular 80's dance song is playing, it's super fun and lighthearted and they're jumping and singing along and smiling like crazy and they can't take their eyes off each other. everyone's on the dancefloor, finally putting their worries aside for a while and just having fun! it's a great time! eddie tho, is watching from the sidelines. he's just broken up with marisol, but he's ok with it. he's having a drink, looking over the room, and his eyes find buck, all giggles and incoherent singing and tommy's nose pressed to his cheek. eddie smiles at first, happy for his friends. then almost immediately he feels something.. wrong. a churn in his stomach, a knot in his throat. his smile drops, weirded out by his own involuntary reaction. what the fuck diaz. jealousy? resentment? god (or whoever) forbid, disgust? no. god no that's not it. that's not who he is. you know, he probably just feels left out. everyone has a date while he just broke up with his, it's fine. those are his friends, and he's happy for them. end of story.
except he looks at bobby and athea. at hen and karen. at chimney and maddie. and he feels nothing. nothing but joy at seeing them all happy and in love.
but he looks at buck and tommy, and tommy kisses buck's cheek, and there it is again. his chest tightens and he looks away and his hand starts squeezing the glass out of its own accord, so hard he's afraid he'll break it so he puts it down.
eddie leaves the reception bit earlier than everyone else.
