Hi friends. Iâm not really sure what Iâm wanting to ask... đ
I guess Iâm looking for some tips, advice, or...maybe handy things youâve learned about grief.
As many of you know, my grandma has been fighting cancer. Weâve been very fortunate to have almost a whole year with her since her diagnosis, but her doctor decided hospice would be the best option for her now. Sheâs been staying with us for a couple of weeks and various hospice people have been helping for a few days. While they said we could be looking at weeks, my mom and I just kind of know itâs my grandmaâs time and it will likely just be a few more days if weâre lucky.
Anyway. Iâm coping okay with all of this hard stuff at the moment. Sheâs been hurting and fighting for a long time. But my grandma helped raise me and her and my mom are the two people Iâm closest to. Iâm more so going to struggle with the âpermanenceâ of it all when it happens and little things like the trips we never got to take, not being able to visit her, or the fact that sheâll never meet my kids or be at my wedding one day or get to see me buy a house or something. Idk. Iâve been very fortunate not to have lost anyone Iâm this close to until this point in my life. I guess Iâm just looking for things to know and wisdom thatâll be helpful from those whoâve experience their own losses.
This is probably a weird and uncomfortable post đ Anything any of you would be willing to share is greatly appreciated. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for all of the kind words, thoughts, prayers, and support. đ Itâs meant the world to me to have some sense of friendship and community despite my frequent and long absences from Tumblr.
