#gaysurf

ok. I haven't a clue what this site is. It just popped up one day. And I thought those other posts were private. More....I cant find the post I just wrote. Anyway replying to coming out. I am out to close family. But when you work for a company that pays you to wear their wetsuits, use their gear, be in their magazines, surf for them, then parents look up, kids, and you will go down if you come out. I’m sure my close buddies have known for 30 years. Yes. But, not the world and I;m only well known to a small group. Not like a movie star. About 15? yrs ago, i was in a Catalog for a Store A and Fitch, and O’Neill flipped their lid. Now, S Dorian can do it - because his life’s splashed everywhere. And he’s married. But I was am getting up their so its a different game, I’m just careful. I cant show my face like most. But dating isn't weird case of sexual orientation, its strange because guys think they need to be something they aren't. They will say anything - for instance “yes I surf” and when we get their and I've brought board and two wetsuits - which will fit him. He confesses he hasnt or its been a long time. Once I met a guy who couldn't swim. I just don't like going out of their way to be someone their not. Were all equal, all the same. But society decides who's cool/not. Money and career still can decide when to come out.  That's why I have to keep it real or may seem like a “dick” at times. I’m not. I know I’m not. And I don't look in the mirror and think I;m hot. Truth. I see the same goofball surfer I've seen for years. You hit the gym, these guys are so into self, their bodies that I cant imagine thinking of myself that much. But I grew up in Palos Verdes CA, and was in a bubble. The beach was my babysitter for every summer. I didnt know Id get good. I knew nada. I didn't know I was pro, until my parents told me  Name, you make money - more then you know at this now. You are a pro. That feeling never came over me. I just enjoy it. Its not work. Its  a passion. I’m blessed. Really.