today I was jumping off the docks into the ocean because it felt like a sacral yes to me. normally, there are other people there jumping off too—today there weren't. suddenly, I didn't feel comfortable jumping off as much. as I sat under the sunshine, I was trying to come up with explanations for this...but I couldn't think of any until other people showed up and starting diving in, and I did too.
my 16/48 channel is entirely on the 4th line! if i'm engaging in something that's a skill, that needs practice, i usually engage in it because it's a way of connecting with other people. yes, i am a 2 by profile—but even my 2 craves recognition. so jumping off the docks while other people around but nobody was connecting with me just felt like a drain to my sacral energy.
--guinevere
