#fyochu

-Chuuya thinks he’s finally over Dazai. It’s been four years. He meets a strange Russian man who offers him revenge on Dazai on a silver platter. Maybe it unnverves Chuuya a little how similar the two are. Maybe he likes it. He tells himself, so I have a type, what’s so wrong with that?

-when Fyodor reached out to Chuuya, he didn’t have anything in mind but strategy. Until he meets him. He’s anything but Fyodor’s type- Fyodor likes ice, men like snow, pure and lethal and heartless. Chuuya is fire and ash, and wears his heart on his sleeve behind an armor of anger. He’s the most genuine person Fyodor has ever met.

-They bond over their shared hatred of Dazai. There aren’t any awkward silences, because they always have this to fall back on. Neither of them really hate Dazai. Both of them love complaining about him though.

-They have similar (expensive) taste, so a friendship builds easily. Granted, they have disagreements- Chuuya prefers jazz and piano pieces, while Fyodor likes strings and classical, Chuuya likes wine and Fyodor prefers Russian liquors, etc- and they find themselves drifting from little insults to flirtatious barbs surprisingly quickly. Fyodor enjoys making Chuuya lose his cool. It reminds Chuuya of him, but it’s different. Where Dazai got off on it with glee and added fuel to the fire, Fyodor gives him a peaceful smile and sultry eyes that takes the breath from Chuuya’s lungs.

-When they have a real fight, they don’t apologize right away. The next time they meet, Fyodor will bring a bottle of wine as a peace offering. Chuuya is always first to apologize, and only then does Fyodor say “Perhaps I… misjudged the situation as well.”

-At first, Chuuya thinks Fyodor is the type to care for others, in a relationship. He’s always giving gifts and making (somewhat calculated) romantic gestures. Roses, wine, luxury. But once he looks a little closer, Chuuya realizes he’s got it wrong.

-Chuuya takes care of Fyodor, because Fyodor doesn’t take care of himself. When they have dates, Chuuya takes him to a nice steakhouse so his anemic idiot can get some iron in his diet. When fall comes around, he takes the opportunity to buy “himself” an expensive lotion in a scent he thinks Fyodor will like (Juniper, perhaps) and wordlessly rubs in into Fyodor’s hands with his own when the moment is right. He trims his jagged, chewed up nails and buys him gloves similar to his own.

-Fyodor doesn’t understand Arahabaki very well. From his Christian perspective, there isn’t much difference between a “god” like that and a demon. It doesn’t really matter. Fyodor thinks abilities are an embodiment of sin, so when he finds out Chuuya’s origins he sees him as a sort of sacrificial lamb, an innocent forced into darkness by mankind. Sometimes, when he’s too tired to think of the implications, he’ll call Chuuya his little lightbringer.

-Eventually, Dazai finds out. He pretends it doesn’t bother him. He laughs, says they’re both stupider than he thought if that’s what they’d be into. (He gets drunk and tries to kill himself again.)

FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY

- has anemia and fibromyalgia as well as chronic migraines.

- is autistic, has arfid, some form of gender queer he would never admit to himself and bisexual.

- his body is basically constantly hanging on by a thread, but he considers it taking part of the lords suffering for our sins. he's more likely of the two to faint.

- despite being taller (6'0) chuuya is the stronger of the two

- shockingly more muscular than you would expect, not as toned as others but you definitely see it with his shirt off

- constant eyebags, his skin is so sallow he almost looks dead constantly. he also feels clammy often (though he may just be sick)

- smells like incense, vanilla, and old church (books, dust, wood).

CHUUYA NAKAHARA

- chronic pain and fatigue, shitty vision thats quickly getting worse and anemia as well as weak bones. all from the overuse of corruption.

- autistic and bpd, trans man, he calls himself gay but realistically leans more bi as well. Though he's almost entirely interested in men.

- probably the first to end up hospitalized (fyodor knows to pace himself) but will NOT stay in the hospital for long. (lab trauma)

- he's short, sure (5'2) but he can beat fyodor in a fight if he has to.

- Chuuya's weight flucates often, but no matter what he's pretty underdeveloped, being in the sheep meant you didn't get a lot of food. he probably doesn't even need top surgery but it makes him feel better anyways.

- despite this he's the more muscular of the two, he's pretty well defined, but not quite ripped. kinda toeing the line of muscled and twink

- freckles, heterochromia, facial piercings / multiple ear piercings

- smells like vanilla cream and coffee, as cinnamon coffee cake

General relationship headcanons

- Chuuya's bpd is pretty explosive often times, especially if he feels he'll lose fyodor. fydodor is extremely good at comforting him. he’ll cup hhuuya’s face and say things like “I’m here. You are not losing me.” and it almost always is able to snap chuuya out of it, even when chuuya goes storming out of the house, yelling and threatening that he'll leave first fyodor always remains calm, gently waiting or if it takes long enough following him out to wrap chuuya up in his coat and just soothe him.

- When Fyodor pushes himself for one reason or another and especially if he faints (but also in general) chuuya just picks him up princess style and carries him back home, he doesn't care that Fyodor is taller than him, he'll carry him back anyways.

- When chuuya's vision gets worse Fyodor will sit next to him and read, sometimes religious books , other times it's old story books. chuuya never really got that type of childhood, after all , so children's stories (even if russian) is something that makes him feel spoiled.

- Chuuya is very loudly jealous, basically barking and growling like a dog protecting his favourite toy, he'll pull Fyodors hand towards him and push his way in front of whoevers making him jealous, loudly complaining about whoever it is, basically tearing them down.

- Fyodor is a more quiet type of jealousy, merely smiling and staring at whoevers the one stealing chuuyas attention, nothing reaches his eyes. He could freeze someone in their place with how hard he's staring at them.

- Chuuya tries speaking russian for fyodor (does not do a good job) and fyodor just smiles, listening through it.

- fyodor calls chuuya loads of petnames in russian, as well as often speaks to him in russian, chuuya doesn't always understand and fyodor often dislikes translating it into Japanese but he'll do it anyways.

- chuuya is so used to the fighting/ play fighting dynamic he and dazai had he immediately assumed he's being slurred the first time he hears fyodor call him something in russian and starts hurling insults (something he still needs to work on) that was the first time he's ever heard fyodor laugh

- Fyodor sometimes just kisses chuuyas head and stays there for a long moment, closing his eyes and intaking his scent.

- Chuuya tries learning russian recipes for Fyodor, as fyodor often has texture issues (arfid) around a lot of non-Russian foods.

- Chuuya usually tops, but fyodor doms. Chuuya let's himself bottom sometimes, though, and fyodor speaks him through sex so softly.