#fun brain stuff

let me start off by saying: i’ve been away for awhile. ive been unreliably on and off the fandom wagon for some time. i kept taking small ‘breaks’, and coming back when i thought i was ready, but i really was not. so, i decided that i just needed to walk away for longer. 

i’ve been through quite a bit the past few months. i wont go into the full of it, but i’ve taken the time i felt necessary to focus on myself and other personal things that i was letting slip through the cracks due to my deteriorating mental health. 

fandom life and writing has been and always will be important to me. it is a vital escape for me and my brain, but for the past four months or so, every time i would return (to scroll through tumblr, to write, to read) i felt myself sinking into guilt, thinking about all the other things that i needed to tend to. 

anyway, i won’t bore you with details. and i don’t want to anyone to think that i was in some dire situation-- i just needed to hit the reset button in a real way, and that’s what i’ve done. 

now, i can honestly say, that i’m so fucking ready. i need to get back into my google docs. i need to get back into ao3, and i need to get back into tumblr and all you lovely, lovely people. 

i just wanted to say hi, that i’ve missed you. that i have not left, i just went on... vacation and that i love and will always love all of you. thank you for everything. 

i’m not sure what the state of the fandom is at present, but i’m gonna just fucking full steam ahead as best i can with my WIPs and i hope y’all will be right there with me. 

cheers and love and happy new year!