#fuckwhatever

and the fact that the weather is so fucking nice where i am

its like idk 70 or so degrees outside

and its sunny and beautiful and warm! it legit feels like summer or spring...but its only january and that makes me mad

wHY CAN'T IT JUST BE SUMMER BREAK ALREADY

whatever im going to take full advantage of this beautiful day

My routine every morning is normally like a finely crafted Swiss watch. Well, that might be saying a bit much. How about an off-brand $8.00 CVS digital watch? I get up every morning at the same time, eat the same cereal, iron my pants, take my morning pill, and proceed from there. However, this morning as I was about to walk out the door, I couldn't remember if I had actually taken my first dose of medication. Rather than run the risk of not having had it and throwing my schedule (and body) out of whack for the day, I opted to take the cautious approach and downed one with a glass of water before heading out to my car.

Judging by how I've felt the bulk of the day, I'm thinking that I had actually taken my morning citalopram and that I did indeed gulp down a second pill. Normally, on my regular dosage, I feel in control, but not too "eh, whatever". With 40mg coursing through my system I have definitely tipped over to the opposite side of the delicate balance I'm trying to maintain. I really don't feel like I give a crap about anything today which means I definitely had too much medicine.