Bummer. I called him on his birthday and he didn't answer. I also texted him wishing him a happy birthday... No answer. I suppose that's it, then. Everything was a joke or something to not be taken seriously. Why me? Why is it always me? Ever since the end of my last relationship, I've been weary as to who I show myself to. After hearing "you're too much", I've been trying to just do my own thing and leave relationships be. But why did it have to be me? Like of all people, and also if it was just a hookup... Fucking tell me instead of saying you love me and all that stupid bullshit I was suppose to buy into. Fuck that, if I'm buying anything nowadays it's going to be a fucking 12 pack of beer. So I get piss drunk and fall asleep to the sound of my neighbor fucking some guy she just met. Fuck you man I'm winning, I'm a badass and will continue to be. Fuck love Fuck being vulnerable Fuck you
