#ftob

Jessica Huang is me

I wish there was a way I could tell you how much I really do sit here and think about you, and how this isn't the way I meant for things to be. More than anything, I will always love you. and I know it's been months since you've walked away, but sometimes, I still need you. Heart skipped a beat, when I called you I was out of reach and I'm sure you've heard it before, but I really didn't think I'd ever have to explore again. But you're off doing what makes you happy, you're off making the same realized mistakes you made while with me, and I'm sure you're going no where and I mean this in the least bit of offense. I'm sorry, but your girl's story seems similar and she doesn't seem as real as we were. Maybe I'm jealous, yea sure I can admit it, but I can also be truthful and admit to myself that I'm not over you. And I'm definitely not using anyone I don't want to be with as a rebound, just to get over you. I have been attempting this alone, by myself, and that's all I want. I hate you and I love you all at the same time and it's not fair that you made me love you, you personally brought your own shovel and dug yourself a big ass hole to reside in my heart and never filled it in when you decided to move on. This is your fault.  As much as I love you, I don't want to be with you, I just want to talk to you. Is that so difficult a task to accomplish?