#ftmasia

So after seeing this photo project, i felt inspired and started thinking how it will look like if there's a photo project with messages that explores the experiences of trans* people. I'm going to start calling for submissions on your experience as a #trans person, let's keep it short. Send your shots here or email to [email protected].

In my years of living, there are countless incidents where i felt like my rights were revoked as a human just because i am trans*. When i was younger, i often questioned myself, "Was i not likable?", "Was it wrong to transition?", "Did living in poverty rob my of my rights?".  My friends and family told me, "your decision will destroy your life". These thoughts and unsupportive peers/ family did not deter my from living my life.

Looking back During my transition journey when i was much younger, i recall putting up a fight when forced to put on a dress, detention classes for kissing a girl, ran away from home because my parents couldn't understand and losing a few good friends who thought i was a freak. Being brought up in a traditionally conservative family, there was no way i could tell them how i really felt about myself. When i eventually muster enough courage at the age of 11, my mum sent me to a counselor, psychiatrist and to the hospital to increase my female hormones level. I told her what she did was repulsive and i want out.  What happens after was very much, a journey of my own. I started working at 12, saving bit by bit and played the waiting game. When i reached 20, i took my first testosterone injection. Though it was just the first step but i knew then, what i'm doing is going to be life-changing. 

Present Someone asked, "After living as a trans* for so long, did it not change a bit of your life?".  My answer to her is yes. It did change my life but it wasn't only a fair bit of it. Every single aspects of my life has change, pretty dramatically. Even if i were given a chance to step into the time machine, i will have to say no. I have come this far only because i have lived as who i was.  With the lack of support from other trans*man, i now run a support group on a monthly basis. I am thankful to have people who benefitted from the group and i hope they can also reach out to other questioning trans*man in need of help. 

If you find yourself questioning and want to hear from other guys in the group, i can be reached via email: [email protected] or twitter @voicesofthesons