I am thinking yet again about for the longest time
How it saved my life
How a piece of ddlc fanfic stopped me from offing myself in the most direct way possible of just keeping me going “But I wanna know what happens, I’ll do it after I finish it.” Day after day after day until it reached the chapter where Sayori goes into the recycling bin hell place to pull Monika out and I dropped my kindle and pulled at my hair and mumbled out loud to myself that I wanted to live
I still remember when it was finally over
I remember crying for the ending
And I remember setting my kindle down at my side and staring at the wall and thinking “Well, I know what happens. If everything had went like I wanted I’d be doing it right now.”
And to this very day
I’m so happy I’m still here because of it.
I’m planning to get “I have two hands.” From the end of character 15 as a tattoo
Just to remind me what I have to thank for being here
