#fs-update

Hi everyone!! I just wanted to kinda let y'all know whats been going on and give y'all a little update about the AU.

TL:DR; Because of a horrible job and declining mental health, my creative drive and passion for MM died. So its been quite a few months since my last update, and I've only made like, 4 updates this year all together.

The reason for that is my personal life has been pretty rough.

In March of this year, I decided to quit my job at the bakery that I loved for health reasons and find a new job. I found that new job at a timeshare company, the biggest in the world, partnered with NASCAR. I'm sure you could find the company I'm talking about.

I got hired in May, and at first, I loved the job. I went home and told all my friends and family how happy I was and how great the job was. It payed well, offered full time benefits and was generally a pretty entertaining job. I liked my managers and my coworkers.

Then in early July, after I had accidentally overslept, I went into work and got yelled at by my older coworker/trainer for how lazy I was, how bad I was at the job, and how little I understood policy.

I was absolutely devastated. I hadn't had any indication that I was in trouble like that.

The following months after that, my coworkers all held everything I did under such heavy scrutiny that I began having panic attacks at work.

Every little mistake I made or question I had was met with sarcasm, vitriol and sass. I asked if I could help multiple times and was told to go back to my desk and be quiet. Nothing I did made them happy, and they were constantly angry at me for something or other that I did.

I went to my managers multiple times about it. But every time, I was met with unkept promises and a day's reprieve. No matter how much I cried, begged, and pleaded for help, nothing changed.

Add on top of that the long hours, ranging from 8-14 hour days, 5 days a week, and I was spent emotionally and mentally. I could barely write and draw. I could barely eat, my physical and mental health were in the trash.

Then Hurricane Ian hit, which ended up freeing me from this job by displacing me.

Mentally, I'm still recovering, and I am so sorry that I took so long between updates, but I was hoping that this little update would clue you in on why I haven't done much creatively in the past 8 months.