#fructa.mumbles

i was a huge huge undertale fan at the time so my username pretty much always had undertale in there :p i also used to play transformice a loottt (alongside with those other versions of it) and on there i met so many nice friends and people !! but some i remember especially were these two people who i got along with really well since we all liked undertale a bunch

it was so so fun playing with them and roleplaying and hanging out i really miss it, i think they would be in their mid-twenties now though (i dont think i ever told them my age at the time but i do remember them being in highschool) i thought they were so so cool and wanted to impress them, i hope they didnt mind my younger cringy self too much hehe

I ask myself "why am i doing what im doing? how did i get to do what i did?" and i can hardly think afterwards

so i find myself staring at nothing, maybe there's a video or a song playing in the background but it doesn't help me think.

Sometimes i feel like i am detached from my body, afterall i am only my brain so its not that far off, is it?

i can hardly control what is going on inside it, it changes at will, it hurts without telling

and then i think about it, am i even my brain? sure, my conscious is in there, but isn't it even more? what am i?

would i have been more, if it wasn't for my brain?

Sometimes it feels wrong

i can't explain it.

I regret everything i've done. I regret everything i've been. It lead me to be here. but do i? i dont know.

i hardly know anything that's going on

Sometimes i just...