#friendish

Overall, I’m excited to see what God will do in my friendships as I pray for those closest to me differently than I ever have before.

I hate to be mean to anyone… I recently reconnected with my ex friend Sarah because she missed me and I kinda missed her. She still bitches about people though…an I know she bitches about me to people. Why are people like that…. I hung out with her because I thought maybe it’d be okay but then she kept complaining about people. I feel that maybe I can be kind to her but then I don’t really wish to be friends with her again. Not good friends. Good friends don’t talk behind people’s backs. She just talks about her boyfriend and well…about other people in bad ways. I don’t even agree with so much mean things she points out. I feel he exaggerates them in her own point of view to make it sound worse than it is and like she’s more mature and knows how to be better. Sigh. I actually look back at that and regret reconnecting with her. My mom and I talked about her and my mom said that isn’t a good person to be around. I don’t exactly know what to do now… I feel bad because she thinks we’re such friends again. But then I forgot about how she treated me and the things she said about me. She’s still been saying things to a bunch of people. I’m tired of this…she acts all nice in person to you and then is someone who hates you to everyone else. I was a fool for thinking she changed. I should’ve thought about it more before choosing to see her. She really is this friendly person in person and is like a gossip and bitch behind your back. Man oh man who knows what she’s saying about me now. I done goofed.