Me and You Together, 6/10 (Taywhora) - Ortega
fic summary: The cardinal rule of having flatmates is that you Do Not Catch Feelings For Your Flatmates, because everything inevitably goes to shit and gets made horrifically awkward. Aâwhora and Tayce both know this, but being in first year of uni and making good decisions have never really gone hand in hand.
a/n: won't say much but i will say that i love tits and cats but i love reblogs, screaming in the tags and asks a whole lot more babes. if u like this i would love any of the former, but mostly the latter xo hope u all enjoy this chapter!!! cw for smut fam (hwfg!!)
last chapter: February- Valentine's Day saw Tayce and A'whora's cover blown as they were interrupted by Ellie and Lawrence.
this chapter: April- a lot has happened since last month, and at Lawrenceâs friendâs flat party Aâwhora struggles with her feelings for Tayce. The trouble is, neither of them have ever been any good at sticking to the rules.
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In front of the wooden tenement door with the music and voices muffled behind it, Aâwhora watches as Ellie frowns, tugs at the hemline of her green snakeskin-patterned skirt.
âIs this too short?â
â No , Ellie,â Aâwhora, Tayce and Tia all groan at her in sync before giggling at the absurdity of their unison. She catches Tayceâs eye for a second before smiling bashfully and looking at the floor, electing to tuck a piece of hair behind her ear. She wordlessly orders her heart to calm down, to stop doing backflips the way itâs doing right now. A reaction like that is much too selfish, against everything they said they would be going forward.
âAinât short enough,â Bimini shrugs blithely, hitching the top of their own hotpants up as if to make a point but only succeeding to rip their fishnets on one of their chunky rings. âShit.â
âWere they new?â Tayce asks.
âYeah. A whole two quid out of Primark.â
âHow is your bank account ever gonny recover?â Lawrence dramatises, clutching at her heart as Bimini sticks their tongue out at her good-humouredly. As the others snort at Lawrenceâs joke, Lawrence herself turns to Ellie and pats her arm. âItâs not too anything, you look great.â
Aâwhora doesnât miss the way Ellie flushes red as she thanks her friend, and in spite of herself she finds herself trying to hide a smile. If she canât be happy, at least one of her friends looks like sheâs on her way to figuring her own feelings out soon enough. Aâwhora just hopes itâll all have a better ending than her own love story seems to have had.
âHave we definitely got the right flat, Lawrence? Youâve not just brought us to some randomerâs party by accident?â Tia agonises as she rubs her arms, self-conscious and cold. Aprilâs blessed them with some sporadic day-long heatwaves but tonight hasnât been as kind; the walk over to Lawrenceâs friendâs flat party had been chilly, and theyâd all needed their jackets.
Aâwhora supposes the temperature suits her situation.
Embittered by the cold and her self-pity, Aâwhora rolls her eyes. âItâs not 2010 anymore, Tia, nobody says randomers .â
âWell I do,â Tia shrugs lightly, and before Aâwhora can begin to bicker with her Lawrence huffs a sigh of exasperation.
âItâs the right flat, awrite?! I have been here before, you know. Sheâll answer any second. Could yous all just stop the arguing and pretend to be normal human beings for once in your lives?â
Aâwhora raises her eyebrows pointedly. âA feat thatâs going to be harder for some of us than othersâŚâ
As both Lawrence and Tia whip their heads round to scold her, the front door opens to reveal a tall girl with full lips, striking hazel eyes and a thick head of candyfloss pink hair that tumbles down over her shoulders and the straps of the tight black bodysuit sheâs wearing. Sheâs gorgeous, and Aâwhora is immediately intimidated. Her eyes dart to Tayce in a small panic, trying to gauge her reaction, but sheâs distracted by Lawrenceâs âWAHEY!â and the girlâs excited squeal as they pull each other into a hug.
âLads, this is RosĂŠ, RosĂŠ, lads!â Lawrence gestures at her flatmates flippantly, and Aâwhora waves a hand in an awkward hello much like the rest of the others. Lawrence turns her attention back to her friend with an apologetic grimace. âHope you donât mind me bringing them, babes. I know you said bring people if theyâre cool, but I donât actually know any cool people, soâŚâ
Aâwhora holds back a snort as she watches Tayceâs face screw up in involuntary offence. RosĂŠ, for her part, just laughs and ushers them all in warmly.
âDonât be silly, of course itâs fine! Come in, baby, letâs get you and your friends sat down and you can introduce me properly, mâkay?â
Once theyâve hung up their jackets RosĂŠ leads the six of them through a crowded hallway, forgoes the thump of the bass and the packed space of bodies all crammed together in the kitchen and instead chooses a quieter room. The multiple sofas, stained coffee table and mismatched chairs suggest itâs a living room of sorts. Thereâs already people on the couches but RosĂŠ simply bats them away as if theyâre flies, irritation on her face.
âMove, my friends are sitting here,â she says simply, before the others grunt and slink off like foxes, tails between their legs. RosĂŠ pats the now-empty seats, pulling a face. âSorry about them. Theyâre just girls we hung out with last year before we realised what they were actually like. Freshers friendships, yâknow? Nobody really wants them to be here, but Jan insisted we had to invite them so things werenât awkward.â
âEver the diplomat, oor Janette,â Lawrence smiles with understanding, throwing herself down beside her friend comfortably. Ellie quickly sits beside her on the other spare space, prompting Aâwhora to take the other sofa thatâs left.
(To her surprise, Tayce sits beside her. Not close, though. Aâwhora doesnât know what she expected.)
It leaves Tia and Bimini to take the other smaller couch, and as they sit RosĂŠ stays true to her word and introduces herself to everyone, making an effort to learn their names and appearing genuinely pleased to meet them all (although that could just be a result of the bottle sheâs drinking from). When she gets to Ellie her face grows scheming, and Aâwhora doesnât miss the way she digs Lawrence in the ribs.
âSo youâre Ellie! Iâve heard so much about you from Lawrence,â RosĂŠ purrs, earning a glare from her friend and a laugh from Ellie.
âFuckâs sake, I bet you have. All horror stories, Iâm sure.â
âOh no, quite the opposite,â RosĂŠ smiles smugly, then flinches suddenly with a hiss. It doesnât take Poirot to figure out that Lawrence is the cause.
âSO, RosĂŠ! Where the fuck is your girlfriend anyway? Donât tell me sheâs left you,â Lawrence says, too-quickly and too-loudly.
âShut up. Last time I saw her she was in the kitchen talking to one of her graduate friends,â RosĂŠ pouts faux-dejectedly. âThink itâs a girl who studied fashion design so they were in the same faculty and knew each other for a bit.â
Aâwhora perks up. âOh, weâd get on then, I think. Iâm studying fashion design too, and Ellie does costume.â
âIâll get Jan to introduce you!â RosĂŠ smiles enthusiastically, before continuing with the conversation. âPlus I totally didnât realise she was flatmates with Nina, who was in the MT society with us last year! Small world, huh?â
âOh my God! You guys did MT?â Tia squeals excitedly. Aâwhora presses her lips together to stop herself from saying anything; trust Tia to be completely unable to play things cool. âIâm in it this year! How come we havenât met before?â
RosĂŠ giggles, covers her mouth with her hand. âWe didnât audition this year. Not to be rude, but we wanted to give everyone else a fighting chance, you know? Weâve got a slot in the Jazz Bar with our friend every Tuesday now instead.â
Tiaâs face drops like sheâs been slapped, and Aâwhora canât help the way her eyebrows fly up her forehead. As she looks to Tayce, though, sheâs disheartened. Usually Tayce would chime in with a little whoop in response to the shady comment, throw herself right into the conversation, be the complete life and soul of the party. Instead sheâs muted, quiet, practically a wallflower in comparison. Aâwhora knows this isnât like her. The guilt eats her up as she knows itâs somehow her fault, but still she canât work out exactly why.
âKandace!â RosĂŠ suddenly yells out into the hall, startling Aâwhora somewhat. âWhereâs my girlfriend, mama?â
Just then a girl enters the room, her dark hair in thick braids which she flips over her shoulder dramatically. âWell damn, bitch, I never took her! Would know better than to do so, you would come at me with a big...pizza cutter or some shit. She prolly in the kitchen drinking all the punch.â
âThereâs punch?â Ellie pipes up, Tiaâs wide eyes and anticipative smile matching her excitement.
âDamn right thereâs punch, what sort of party dâyou think this is? Amateurs. Câmon, Iâll show you both. You can introduce yourselves on the way,â the girl shrugs with the efficient energy of an infant teacher.
âOh, I like you already,â Ellie smiles as she springs up from the sofa, and Aâwhora doesnât miss the crestfallen look that takes over Lawrenceâs face in response to Ellie's departure.
âRosĂŠ, if I find Jan Iâll send her through,â the girl yells from over her shoulder, as the three of them leave the room. RosĂŠ immediately turns to Lawrence as Ellie leaves, whispers something like â so when are you gonna tell her?â before sheâs hastily shushed by her friend.
Aâwhora always has to remind herself sheâs not meant to know about Lawrenceâs crush on Ellie. She only knows because Tayce told her. Tayce doesnât really tell her things these days, not in the same way she used to. Their chats used to be deep and meaningful, shared over a glass of wine in a dimly-lit bar or in bed pressed close together and wrapped around each other like vines. Now itâs flippant inquiries into how each othersâ day was that neither of them care about the answer to, the question only serving as a box-ticking exercise to maintain the illusion of friendship.
Thatâs what they said theyâd be. So why does this friendship feel so different to the one they had before?
Well. Aâwhora knows why.
Sheâd thought this situation would be perfect- Lawrence had been invited to RosĂŠâs pre-exam-season flat party, and of course had in turn invited the whole flat too- and Aâwhora had assumed that it would be the perfect opportunity to get everything back on track with Tayce, a little bit of alcohol giving them the gentle nudge in the right direction that they needed to mend whatever had snapped between them. But as Tayce sips one of the cans of cider sheâs brought with her, she only smiles at RosĂŠ politely and laughs half-heartedly at Lawrenceâs jokes.
Itâs been weeks since that day in March and Aâwhoraâs still trying to figure out what exactly happened. Itâs strange for something to be over before it ever really had a chance to begin.
Her thoughts are ruptured by the arrival of two more people: a boy with black hair, an earring and a black denim jacket and a girl with tumbling straight blonde hair and warm brown eyes. Sheâs got a pink sash thatâs squint and falling off her shoulder, and a huge pink birthday badge pinned to her purple dress. When she walks in, RosĂŠâs whole face lights up.
Aâwhora tries to remember if Tayceâs face ever did that when she came into a room.
âThereâs my baby!â RosĂŠ beams, holds out her arms for a hug. The girl instead elects to tumble down onto her lap, and the two of them giggle like Care Bears.
Fleetingly, Aâwhora hates them.
âOh, fuck me, right?â the boy fakes offence, before RosĂŠ rolls her eyes and pats the space beside her where Lawrence has scooted up.
âYou know damn well I was referring to you,â she addresses him, before turning to her girlfriend once more. âJan, Mik, these are Lawrenceâs flatmates!â
âOh my God, adorbs! Lilâ fresher babies,â the boy says, with a vocal fry to rival that of a Valley girl. Aâwhora knows he doesnât mean to be patronising, but her backâs put up all the same.
Sheâs probably just in a bad mood over Tayce.
âI hope itâs okay I brought them,â Lawrence says, apologising for their very presence for the second time that evening.
âHey, the more people here to get drunk and forget about the overwhelming stress of deadline season, the better,â the girl shrugs cheerfully, then waves to nobody in particular. âNice to meet you all! Iâm Jan, thatâs Mik. Can I learn names? Pronouns if you want to as well?â
Lawrence slaps her thigh decisively. âCrackinâ idea, Iâll start. Iâm Lawrence and my pronouns are she/her, or fat/bastard.â
The room is filled with hysterical laughter that immediately breaks any ice that had been present between the freshers and the second year students. As they all introduce themselves politely, Aâwhora doesnât fail to notice the way Mikâs eyes light up when Bimini introduces themself.
âHey, do you know if theyâre single?â Mik asks Lawrence, tipsy and sloppy and in a whisper that isnât really a whisper. Aâwhora canât help but laugh as she watches Bimini blush from their position on the sofa and smile over at Mik, flattered.
âSorry to disappoint, babes, but Iâm taken.â
Itâs with Biminiâs words that Lawrence gives a yell of surprise and Aâwhoraâs jaw drops open in shock. She canât help the way she immediately looks wide-eyed at Tayce, and her heart jumps a hurdle when she sees her looking in her direction with much the same expression. Tayceâs shock at the secret Biminiâs kept from them prompts her to lurch forward on the sofa and give a cry of surprise.
âEx-squeeze me, Bimini Bon Boulash?! Since bloody when ?!â
Bimini shrugs, clearly bashful. âMade things official with Asttina late on last month. Ainât a big deal.â
âAnd when were you going to tell us this exactly? Were you gonna leave it in your last will and testament or something?!â Aâwhora cries, heart jarring at the laugh her words earn from Tayce.
Bimini stretches in their own catlike way, unbothered and laid back to an almost horizontal extent. âWell, you never asked.â
âWhat the hell?! This is big. Câmon Rory,â Tayce suddenly turns to Aâwhora and clutches at her hand frantically, and in doing so sends a thousand sparks flying between them. As Aâwhoraâs pulse leaps, Tayce does the same off the sofa. âWe need to go find the others. You ainât getting away with just the three of us on this interrogation squad, Mx Bimini!â
âAlright, Line of effinâ Duty,â Bimini chuckles good-naturedly, and Aâwhora allows Tayce to drag her up off the sofa and through to the hall.
Tayce is giggling as sheâs weaving them both through the crowd, and for a moment itâs like nothing has ever changed between them. Aâwhoraâs not been keeping track of how many cans Tayce has had so far but she herself has only had three (two at pres, one here so far), so sheâs not attributing that to the sudden personality transplant. Sheâs trying not to overthink it too much but this is the most authentic interaction sheâs had with Tayce for a while, and itâs silly, but itâs hard to believe itâs not too good to be true.
For a moment, sheâs almost glad Bimini didnât tell them about Asttina if it meant she and Tayce could bond like this.
âCan you bloody believe it?!â Tayce squeaks at her as they reach the kitchen and, in turn, the punch bowl. Tayce wrenches two red cups from the stack beside it and fills them up with the ambiguous orange liquid thatâs inside, pouring it sloppily and messily from the ladle. âI mean theyâre meant to be our bloody friend! And then they donât even tell us about the breaking news in their own love life! What goes on!â
âTo be fairâŚâ Aâwhora begins without thinking, then snaps her mouth closed as her heart shudders in her chest. Sheâd been about to say we kept us a secret from them too but she canât bring that up now, send them crashing back down to earth and into the broken, uncomfortable bed theyâve somehow made. So she smiles tightly at Tayce whoâs looking at her expectantly, takes the cup sheâs holding out to her as she finishes her sentence. â...Bimâs always been a pretty private person.â
Tayce shrugs and holds the cup to her lips before she raises her eyebrows, takes it away and holds it out in the middle between them. âCheers, slag.â
Silly and overeager, Aâwhora crashes their cups together then takes a too-big swig. The punch fills her mouth like poison and she feels her eyes grow wide as she swallows and then gags, Tayce doubling over laughing at her reaction.
âWhat the fuck is in that?!â she cries with horror, looking at the cup with incredulity as Tayce continues to laugh at her expense.
âItâs called punch for a reason, girl! It ainât some fruity dilutey Slug and Lettuce pornstar martini tree weâre talking about here!â
âPunch is right. Feel like Iâve been punched in the fucking stomach,â Aâwhora screws her face up. Tayceâs face lights up and her hand rests on Aâwhoraâs arm as she launches into a story excitedly.
âOh my God. Dâyou remember that time we made punch back near freshers week and Lawrence added that thing to it...fuck, what was it called?! She kept calling it âwreck the hoose juiceâ.â
âBuckfast!â Aâwhora remembers with glee, trying not to grow too animated because if she moves she might scare Tayce away like sheâs some sort of rare bird. This is the closest sheâs been to Tayce in every sense for quite a while, and the moment is so magical that sheâs determined not to let it slip away.
âThat was it! And then the next day we were all so ill we were like...convinced weâd been spiked! But it was just that bloody Buckfast!â
As the pair of them giggle, Aâwhora starts laughing harder as she remembers what Tayce had said.
âSorry, but hearing the words âwreck the hoose juiceâ in a Welsh accent is probably the funniest thing Iâve heard in weeks.â
Tayce removes her hand from her arm only to slap her on it. âOh, because the same thing in a Worksop accent is so much better!â
âWe should get Ellie to say it. She's Scottish, it'll sound the same as when Lawrence says it,â Aâwhora says, then scans her gaze around the room and narrows her eyes. âWhere the hell is she, anyway? We still need to tell her and Tia about Bim.â
The roar of a countdown from ten down to one on the other side of the kitchen prompts both her and Tayceâs gazes to wrench in its direction, only for their eyes to fall on Tia glugging a horrific-looking brown concoction out of a pint glass and Ellie yelling descending numbers at her, along with RosĂŠâs flatmate theyâd disappeared with and a crowd of strangers.
âOf course,â Tayce deadpans, earning a snort from Aâwhora. Just then, A'whora remembers some chat Ellie had told her while they were getting ready, and she turns to tell Tayce without thinking. It's just natural to tell Tayce these sorts of things by now, and she's missed doing so.
âYou know Ellie told me earlier sheâs gonna like...see what happens with Lawrence tonight?â Aâwhora relays to Tayce eagerly, before she forgets that Tayce had sworn her to secrecy about the whole thing and her mouth snaps shut. Itâs too late though, because Tayce is fixing her with a single raised eyebrow and a smirk which shouldnât make Aâwhoraâs stomach flip over like it does.
Friends, friends, friends.
âGod, wonder how come Ellieâs suddenly over Tia and open to Lawrence?â she teases her, and Aâwhora groans apologetically.
âLook, I know you said not to tell anyone but it was the day they had that row in the flat,â she explains, belatedly and awkwardly realising that it had been the same day that she and Tayce had had that conversation and everything had changed between them. Aâwhora tries to shake the feeling of regret as she carries on. âEllie was saying how Lawrence didnât care about her and all that and it...well, it just came out. I had to shut her up somehow.â
Tayce shakes her head and laughs, toeing the line between long-suffering and affectionate. When she takes Aâwhoraâs hand and squeezes it the line is crossed, and a thousand fireworks go off in her bloodstream. Tayce's eyes are soft as she looks at her and it only makes Aâwhoraâs heart hurt.
âMy fault, really. Shouldâve known you canât keep a secret to save yourself.â
âKept us a secret for long enough,â Aâwhora says before she can stop herself. She feels like slapping a hand over her mouth, a flimsy gesture illustrating her mistake, and from the way Tayce lets go of her hand and looks to the floor it seems she regrets it just as much as Aâwhora does.
Fuck.
When Tayce snaps her head back up thereâs a smile on her face that Aâwhora knows is fake, and she sets her cup down on the counter as she looks back over at Ellie and Tia. âRight! You wait here and guard the punch. Iâll drag those two hounds over and we can give them the goss.â
Aâwhora nods as she takes her turn to look to the floor, and suddenly Tayce is off in the direction of their other flatmates and all she can do is sit and stew in her embarrassment and regret at having said the wrong thing yet-a-fucking-gain.
Ellie has told Aâwhora countless times to just talk to her! and that if you just sit and chat things through everything will be fixed! but itâs been things Aâwhoraâs said thatâs somehow got them into this mess, even though she still doesnât really know what specifically it was that made Tayce make the decision to stop it all, to stop falling asleep together and waking up together and going on dates (because they were dates, and thatâs the hill Aâwhora will die on) and talking to each other like theyâd known each other for eight years and not eight months.
When she thinks about the ways she misses Tayce, the sex isnât even the first thing that comes to mind. Thatâs how she knows she was in deep. Well, still is. But Aâwhora would be lying if she said she didnât still think about Tayce when her hands are between her thighs, has to stop the memories that flood her head when she's in the shower, moans just that little bit too loudly when she uses her vibrator in the pathetic hope that Tayce will hear her through the wall.
She supposes thereâs a ridiculous part of her that misses the intimacy and the closeness most of all.
âAurora!â
Aâwhoraâs dragged out of her thoughts and turns around to see Jan standing beside a tall blonde in a tight red dress. Even though her mind is still entirely preoccupied by Tayce, her mouth goes a little dry and her heart skips a beat because...well, she still knows an attractive girl when she sees one. She fixes the two girls with a polite smile as Jan gestures at the girl beside her.
âThis is Brooke Lynn! Sheâs my friend from the design faculty that did fashion? RosĂŠ was saying you wanted introduced.â
Aâwhora feels her cheeks flush red as Brooke cocks an eyebrow at her and smirks. âTruthfully, Iâm flattered. Always happy to meet a fan.â
Aâwhora shakes her head and gives an embarrassed laugh. âThatâs not...I mean-â
âIâm just fucking with you. Nice to meet you,â Brooke smiles lazily, leaning against the countertop as Jan slips away. âSo Jan was saying youâre studying design too?â
âYeah! I mean, itâs hell on earth just now, especially with deadline season coming up. But I do actually really enjoy it most of the time,â Aâwhora replies politely.
Brooke laughs in fond recollection. âGod, I donât miss that. Portfolios were a bitch.â
âRight!â Aâwhora agrees enthusiastically. âItâs quite nice, though, because lots of my flatmates are at the art school as well, so we kind of all have that shared bond of going through the shit together. Lawrence does textiles, Ellie does costume and Tayce does fine art. In fact, thatâs Ellie and Tayce over there.â
Aâwhora turns to point to where Tayce has found Ellie, although sheâs perturbed to see the two of them already looking their way. Ellieâs eyes widen as she gives them an awkward wave and Tayce immediately looks elsewhere, her entire body language shifty as if sheâs been caught out.
Aâwhoraâs pulse starts to race all over again. Is sheâŚ? No.
But then she thinks about that night in December when they first kissed, how Aâwhora had been driven so crazy by Tayce talking to so many other girls that she was basically forced to show her hand and her feelings. She knows they said theyâd be friends, but this situation is being handed to her on a plate and sheâd be an idiot to turn it down.
So Aâwhora flips some of her hair over her shoulder and exposes her neck as she tilts her head with interest. âSo, RosĂŠ was saying you graduated last year?â
She and Brooke Lynn talk for a while; Aâwhora doesnât know if itâs five minutes or twenty, but with every passing minute she steps up the flirting just a little tiny bit more, so that itâs nearly imperceptible to any onlookers. Tayce is different though, because sheâs not just any onlooker. To anyone else it just looks like two strangers getting to know each other at a party, but Aâwhora knows Tayce sees every time she tucks her hair behind her ears, every time she giggles behind her hands, every time she nods eagerly at whatever Brooke is saying.
She can feel Tayceâs eyes on her, and Aâwhora would be lying if she said it didnât make her stomach flip over all the more.
Sheâs not getting much from Brooke, though: not much of a reaction, not much reciprocation, not much anything. So the moment she steps things up a bit and touches her lightly on the arm as she laughs at a joke sheâs made, Aâwhoraâs sure itâll get her somewhere. Only Brooke pulls a face, moves her arm away and apologises.
âGod, Iâm sorry...youâre sweet, but Iâve actually got a girlfriend,â she explains, and Aâwhora feels herself blush, embarrassed at having been spurned but also that it was all in full view of Tayce. Itâs made even worse by the way Brookeâs face lights up as her eyes fall on someone over Aâwhoraâs shoulder. âIn fact, here she is now! Hey, baby.â
Another girl appears from behind her and moves to stand beside Brooke, wrapping a protective arm around her waist. Sheâs small and pretty and hostile, and Aâwhora is suddenly regretting the entire making-Tayce-jealous endeavour if sheâs about to get grief from Brookeâs girlfriend.
âAnd who the fuck is this bitch?â the girl says by way of an introduction, not so much a question but a demand.
âVanessaâŚâ Brooke looks at her warningly, but the girl continues regardless.
âNah, I just wanna know what business she thinks she has cominâ onto my girl like this?â she narrows her eyes at Aâwhora. Aâwhora, for her part, has never wanted the ground to open up and swallow her more.
This never happened to Tayce in December, thatâs for fucking sure.
âHonestly, babes, we were just talking. Sheâs just told me sheâs taken, I would never have tried anything if Iâd known,â she tries to explain, but judging from how the girl reacts sheâs only made the situation worse.
âBabes? I ainât your babe, Milkybar-Kid-lookinâ ass!â she cries, and Aâwhora feels her eyes darting to the punch bowl beside her, suddenly terrified that the liquid inside it could be used as a potential weapon. âBet your damn life sheâs taken, bitch!â
Aâwhoraâs weighing up the options of apologising more or escalating this into a full-scale brawl (because really, who the fuck does this girl think sheâs talking to?) when she feels a hand slip into the crook of her elbow and tug her away from the kitchen, the pint-pot Conor McGregor still yelling at her as she leaves.
âOkay, home time,â Tayceâs voice says, amusement coating her words and only serving to make Aâwhora feel worse. As she turns to look at her she sees Ellie on her other side, who ducks into the living room as Tayce picks up their jackets from the hooks in the hall.
âTia wants to stay and keep drinking, think sheâs found some of her MT friends here,â Tayce explains, handing Aâwhora her coat with a little smile. âEllieâs gone to get Lawrence and Bim. What the bloody hell was that, girl?â
Aâwhora rolls her eyes petulantly, annoyed that her plan hadnât exactly been as successful as sheâd hoped. âWell, you know what they say. The hot ones are always taken.â
âNot always,â Tayce shrugs at her, a little twinkle in her eye as Ellie reappears with Lawrence on her arm.
âBimâs gonny stay and look after Tia. Theyâre staying at Asttinaâs tonight, anyway, so they can drop Tia off at ours or Veronica's depending on what she wants to do,â Lawrence explains, only a little unsteady on her feet. âAnyway, whatâs this Iâm hearing about Aâwhora being a homewrecker?â
As they leave the party, Aâwhora reluctantly tells the story and the three of them all laugh and joke in response. If sheâs being honest, Tayce finding the whole thing funny isnât the worst thing to come out of the whole situation. Sheâs not annoyed or ignoring her, and at least thatâs some form of progress, as ridiculous as it seems.
The four of them walk home full of tipsy, carefree joy, Lawrenceâs voice bouncing off the buildings in the streets as she sings Rain On Me and the others all join in with Arianaâs whistle tones. They fill the air with their horrendous, off-key yelling and no doubt awaken everyone whoâs unfortunate enough to own a flat on the main road, but none of them care.
Lawrence and Ellieâs arms are still linked, the pair of them leaning into each other as they walk, but Tayce hasnât afforded Aâwhora the same affection. Which is fine. Theyâre not what they were now, whatever the hell they had been. Theyâre friends, but Aâwhora isnât sure that label is meant to make it feel as if a broken shard of glass is getting jammed through her heart every time she uses it.
Itâs fine.
Their hands still brush against each other every so often as they walk, though, ghosts of moments when theyâd hold hands in bed and Tayce would trace around her fingers silently and intimately. The sporadic contact only seems to amplify the electricity thatâs already so present in the atmosphere. Aâwhora thinks back to the party, talking in the kitchen with the girl who was Tayceâs opposite in every way. She doesnât know if sheâs being deluded when she thinks about Tayce being jealous. She hopes she was, though. Really itâs not like she has any right to be; Aâwhora can do what she wants with who she wants, and if Tayce wanted her to herself then she should haveâŚ
Well. Aâwhora knows what she shouldâve done.
If it hadnât been for Brookeâs tiny pitbull girlfriend coming in and yelling the place down, Aâwhora wouldâve probably tried to kiss her. Not that she wanted to kiss her. Not that she was even really hugely attracted to her like she is to Tayce. But sheâs intoxicated by the idea of Tayce watching her kiss someone else and burning up with regret and hurt, wishing it was her in Brookeâs place. But Tayce clearly hasnât been bothered by the whole thing, Aâwhora thinks, as they laugh and quote lines from Tracey Beaker at each other while they walk. Sheâs not acting as if sheâs annoyed at Aâwhora. Sheâs acting as if...well, as if theyâre friends.
Which is what they agreed. Aâwhora doesnât know why she expected anything different.
It takes the four of them five goes at inputting the code on the door to their block, yelling in delight when Aâwhora manages it and then frantically shushing each other as they ascend the echoey stairwell. Itâs Tayce who unlocks the door to their flat and they all stumble in, still giggly and laughing.
âKitchen afterparty?â Tayce suggests as soon as sheâs over the threshold. Aâwhoraâs ready to agree. Pathetically, after everything thatâs happened, sheâd still always agree to more time with Tayce.
Ellie shakes her head though, and as she pushes the door to her own bedroom open Lawrence moves to linger in its doorway too. âNah. Too tired. You two have fun though.â
âSpeaking of you two having fun,â Aâwhora jokes, pointing her finger at the two girls and wiggling her eyebrows. She dissolves into giggles as Ellie rolls her eyes and Lawrenceâs face turns bright pink, happy sheâs managed to get her own back for the endless teasing she and Tayce had to go through at the hands of their flatmates.
âShut up. Weâre gonna watch High School Musical 3, Lawrence hasnât seen it,â Ellie explains, a look passing between the two girls that Aâwhoraâs endlessly suspicious of.
âOh, I havenât seen that either! Can I join?â Tayce says lightly, Aâwhora smirking at her and seeing the twinkle in her eyes as she realises exactly what sheâs trying to do. The question gets the desired reaction: Ellieâs eyes shoot wide open and Lawrenceâs jaw drops as she tries to think of an explanation as to why Tayce canât join in their impromptu, cosy movie night.
Tayce puts them out of their misery a second later. âYou know what actually, I think Iâll just head to bed too after all.â
The visible relief on the two girlsâ faces makes Aâwhora stifle a laugh, and as they all say goodnight she catches sight of Ellie taking Lawrenceâs hand as the door closes. Aâwhoraâs eyes meet Tayceâs as theyâre left on their own, both girls laughing softly at the situation.
âCute. Good for them,â Tayce smiles gently, before looking at the floor bashfully. âYou down, then? Kitchen afterparty?â
Aâwhoraâs stomach twists awkwardly. As tempted as she is and as much as she wants to, she feels as if more alcohol would make the current situation worse, and if theyâre going to try to be friends then they need to commit to it. So she shakes her head, watches as something shuts down behind Tayceâs eyes. âIâm gonna get some water and then head to bed. Sorry.â
âWater seems like a good idea,â Tayce shrugs, and as Aâwhora peels off down the corridor towards their kitchen Tayce follows behind her.
Neither of them bother to turn the light on when they get to the kitchen- filling up a glass and taking a few quick sips doesnât take a long time- and the light from the hall paired with the glow through the window from the streetlamps outside is just enough to ensure Aâwhora can see what sheâs doing as she takes a glass out of the cupboard overhead and fills it up, glugging at it quickly. She can feel Tayce waiting at the sink behind her, but doesnât turn to make eye contact. The silence is tense and deafening and awkward. Friendship no longer suits them.
So when Aâwhora turns around from the sink and Tayce is closer to her than she thought with a sparkle in her eyes, she is immediately struck down with all the feelings sheâs tried to suppress. Tayce boxes her in, one hand on the edge of the countertop at either side of her, and as she leans in sheâs got a little smirk on her face.
âTayce, wh-â
âShhh,â Tayce whispers, before leaning in and kissing her, slow and gentle but with an underlying intensity that makes a heat pool in the pit of Aâwhoraâs stomach. She becomes so caught up in the moment that she almost forgets about everything theyâd said, everything they vowed theyâd stop doing.
So Aâwhora pulls away, but the needy whine Tayce gives and the way she moves her hands to rest at her waist makes her have second thoughts. She smiles a little, cocks her head to mock her just a tiny bit. âWe said we werenât doing this again.â
Tayce gives another whine, pushes one of her hands a little higher to rest at Aâwhoraâs ribcage. âI know, itâs a really bad idea.â
Tayce drops her head to rest on Aâwhoraâs shoulder, presses light kisses to her neck that are too much and not enough all at once. Aâwhora hears herself gasp into the kitchen, already equal parts frustrated and desperate.
âYou should probably stop kissing my neck, then,â she breathes out, hissing as Tayceâs lips hit a sensitive spot that doesnât make the situation any better at all.
âYou should probably stop acting like you like it so much,â Tayce smiles against her skin, punctuating her sentence with another kiss before adding, âOr else I wouldnât do it.â
âYeah, itâs all my fault, isnât it?" Aâwhora giggles, looking to the ceiling in exasperation as she already knows how this is going to end.
Itâs fun to let Tayce work for it a little, though.
âAll your fault, you bad girl,â Tayce murmurs, pulling away from Aâwhoraâs neck and instead keeping her eyes trained on her as she runs her hands up the sides of her thighs and under her skirt. If Tayce is looking for a reaction then sheâs got one, because the feeling of Tayceâs fingers against her skin is filling Aâwhoraâs head with all sorts of memories thatâre making it even harder to stick to the rules they both set.
âYou looked so good tonight,â Tayce murmurs, her eyes cast down to the floor. The praise makes Aâwhoraâs heart race twenty times harder than it already is. She pouts, brings her own hands to rest at Tayceâs hips.
âI was so pretty, wasnât I?" she teases, not missing the way Tayceâs eyes flutter closed at her words. She decides to twist the knife a little. âBet youâre so gutted I wasnât picking my whole outfit out thinking about you. You canât stand to see me talking to other girls, thatâs why you need to corner me in the kitchen to get a reaction, right?â
âWorked though, didn't it?â Tayce smirks, running one finger along the edge of her underwear and sending a shiver down Aâwhoraâs spine. Sheâs so determined not to let Tayce win whatever game theyâre playing though so she takes one hand off her waist, reaches behind her for the glass of water sheâd poured thatâs still half full.
âHasnât worked yet, weâre just talking,â Aâwhora smiles smugly, sipping from the glass whilst looking Tayce dead in the eye. She gets met with an equally challenging look, one that makes her squeeze her thighs together.
âYeah, we didnât make rules against talking,â Tayce says, bringing one of her hands up to brush a little piece of hair out of Aâwhoraâs face and tuck it behind her ear. The contact makes Aâwhoraâs whole body tingle as Tayce continues speaking. âDidnât make rules against me telling you how much I want to fuck you against this counter and watch you have to try and be quiet.â
âTayce!â Aâwhora laughs in shock, at once annoyed and turned on by the smirk that appears on Tayceâs face. She brings her arms up to circle around Tayceâs neck, pulls her a little closer so theyâre pressed up against each other.
âDidnât make rules against me telling you how all night Iâve been thinking about flipping that skirt up and touching you and feeling how wet you are,â Tayce mutters darkly, pushing her knee in between Aâwhoraâs thighs as if to make her point. Aâwhora can only bite her lip to stop herself from giving a whimper of a response, because Tayce is busy reducing her to a puddle right in the middle of the kitchen and she canât give her the satisfaction of appearing needier than she already is.
âOr how much I want to tell you exactly what a perfect angel you are while youâre riding my fingers and begging me for it-â
âJesus fucking Christ,â Aâwhora sighs before Tayceâs lips cut her off and theyâre kissing again, messy and hot and desperate and everything Aâwhoraâs wanted for weeks. They canât be friends when theyâre so good like this, when they know just what the other likes and wants and needs, and Aâwhora needs Tayce so much.
Tayce pulls away only to murmur against Aâwhoraâs lips. âTell me what you want, babe.â
Aâwhora pulls back a little, taking a little breath of composure as she tries to form her words. âWant you to do all that. Everything you said.â
She can see sheâs said the right thing from the way Tayce paws at her waist and slides a hand up the side of one of her thighs. She gives her a funny sort of smile. âMight need to beg me for it a little bit.â
Aâwhora pouts involuntarily at her words, moves a hand to cup Tayceâs jaw. âShouldnât have to beg when I know how much you want me.â
âHmm. Sounds like something a spoiled brat would say,â Tayce smirks, leaning against her and pushing her thigh a little higher so that Aâwhora is pressed right up against it. When Aâwhora grinds down and Tayceâs eyes grow dark it sends a little thrill of delight down every single nerve ending in her body.
Tayce runs her tongue over her bottom lip before she whispers again. âIf I didnât want you like this so badly Iâd take you over to those sofas and spank all this bad behaviour out of you.â
âYeah, you want to watch me put my pretty little ass in the air for you, donât you?â Aâwhora murmurs, squirming against Tayceâs thigh again. She can feel herself throb against her and it feels so good, fucking insanely good, but she hopes Tayce is going to give her what she wants sooner rather than later because she doesnât want to end up coming just from this.
Tayce pulls her in for a kiss again, more frantic than the last, and as their lips crash together Aâwhora pushes her hands into Tayceâs hair, tugs on it in the hopes itâll get a reaction out of her. Tayce gasps against her and it elicits a reaction in Aâwhora thatâs so visceral that she bucks her hips again, the friction making her whine.
âThink you need to start begging or else youâre gonna come and Iâm not even gonna get to touch you,â Tayce says as she pulls away, biting her lip and raising her eyebrows triumphantly when Aâwhora hisses out a fuck .
âPlease, Tayce,â she swallows her pride and begs, her fingers playing lightly with the straps of Tayceâs top as she hears her hum in consideration.
âNot sure thatâs quite enough begging for making me stand and watch you flirt with another girl at that party. Maybe I could just walk away and watch how you react to having nothing to fuck yourself against at all,â Tayce whispers as Aâwhora rides her thigh needily, but the tone to her voice tells Aâwhora sheâs not anywhere near serious.
âYou like watching me get all wound up way too much to do that.â
âI do,â Tayce leans in, rests her forehead against Aâwhoraâs as she tugs her top up from where itâs tucked into the waistband of her skirt and skims her fingers against her bare skin. âI love watching you get exactly what you want, you look so pretty when you want to come. Hair all messed up and biting your lip like such a perfect little mess.â
Aâwhora feels her stomach flip over and the heat grow between her legs as she begins to get worn down. Her hands drop down to grab Tayceâs ass through her jeans, tries to pull her closer even though there's already hardly any distance between them. âPlease, Tayce, want you so much.â
âJust wanna make my princess feel so good,â Tayce pouts mockingly, and itâs almost sinful enough to make Aâwhora disregard the âmyâ that Tayce drops in the middle of her sentence. It hurts Aâwhoraâs feelings more than sheâd care to admit, so as revenge she gives a self-indulgent shudder against Tayceâs thigh, lets out a moan thatâs too loud and makes Tayceâs eyes grow wide.
âThe girls are gonna hear,â Tayce warns her, leaning in for three short kisses which she clearly delights in pulling away from each time.
At this point Aâwhora thinks sheâs being driven slowly insane and so she finally lets her pride crumble to the ground, well and truly demolished as she gives a desperate whine. âFuck, please , baby, please, please, please, need you so much, please.â
Tayce smirks at her triumphantly and tilts her head. âThere. That wasn't hard, was it?â
Itâs then that Aâwhora breaks. As she loops her finger around the velvet choker Tayce is wearing and crashes their lips together again she only breaks the kiss to hop up onto the counter, spreading her legs wide and feeling a flutter of anticipation between them as Tayce immediately gets to work, gently trailing her fingers up the inside of her thighs and making Aâwhoraâs mouth drop open. She tugs her lace underwear down so itâs sitting at her knees, rips her top and her bra off and brushes her fingers over her nipples, presses hot, wet open-mouthed kisses over what feels like every inch of bare skin. Aâwhora is such a panting, incoherent mess that she almost doesnât notice that Tayce has stepped back a little. When she opens her eyes she can see her sweeping a long, slow glance down her body, her pupils blown and her jaw slack.
âYou are a fucking miracle ,â she gasps in awe, and Aâwhora immediately feels herself growing shy, Tayceâs words making her feel more naked than the fact sheâs sitting on their kitchen counter half-dressed. Tayce seems to grow a little reserved as well, maybe picking up on the reaction Aâwhoraâs given her, and when she leans in to kiss her again itâs slow and languid in the same way that honey falls from a spoon.
Thereâs a pause in the kiss where Tayce hooks her fingers over the waistband of Aâwhoraâs underwear and pulls it off of her completely, leaving her free to trail her fingers up the soft skin on the inside of Aâwhoraâs thigh and make her buck against thin air helplessly. Tayce fans her fingers against her thigh and lazily swipes a thumb over Aâwhoraâs slit, the moan of relief Aâwhora lets out and the little gasp Tayce gives piercing through the quiet of the kitchen.
âSo wet for me,â Tayce breathes out all at once, dropping her lips to her neck and kissing her. Thereâs a second where she bites and sucks at her skin, making Aâwhora gasp and giggle guiltily and squirm against her touch. Tayceâs lips are hot against her skin as she continues. âI would be on my fucking knees if I didnât want to look at your gorgeous face the whole time.â
âTayce, please,â Aâwhora begs, bouncing a little on the countertop as she desperately and wordlessly tries to get Tayceâs thumb to circle her clit. She suspects Tayce is being deliberate with the contact; she knows if she holds back then Aâwhora will just start begging her desperately like she did before.
The little smirk that appears on her face confirms her suspicions. âWhat is it, baby?â
Aâwhora grinds down but Tayce only flicks her thumb away, the frustration she feels and the way sheâs practically aching in response turning Tayceâs little playful smile into a shit-eating grin. Aâwhora feels her bottom lip stick itself out and she whines needily. âYou know what.â
âAww. You not able to use your words any more, princess?â Tayce pouts mockingly back at her, and in response Aâwhora brings her hands up under the hem of Tayceâs top and skates her nails down her back. It seems to have the desired reaction as Tayce pulls her hand away for a second, Aâwhora subsequently drawing in a deep, shaky breath as she feels Tayceâs fingers slide deep inside her, her thumb rubbing gentle circles against her clit and leaving her feeling so overwhelmed that she tips her head forward to rest on Tayceâs shoulder.
âFuck, so good,â she whispers, shuddery and breathy against Tayce's neck as she rides her fingers. Going from minimal teasing to having her every need met all at once is rendering her almost speechless but as she straightens up she finds she wants to keep talking if only to see the way Tayce blinks slowly and heavily as she collects herself, the rapid rise and fall of her chest as she watches Aâwhora become more and more wound up. âSo perfect, keep going...fuckâŚâ
âGod, I wish you could see what you look like right now,â Tayce hisses, curling her fingers and managing to hit a spot that makes Aâwhora squeeze her eyes shut and bite down hard on her lip to stop herself from squealing in ecstasy. She keeps her eyes closed as Tayce keeps talking to her, every word making her melt and only intensifying the waves of bliss that are racking her body. âYouâre so beautiful, Aurora, oh my God, so, so, so gorgeous...perfect fucking angelâŚâ
Aâwhora presses a frantic hand to Tayceâs jaw and pulls her in to kiss her again, but theyâre unable to make it last all that long when theyâre both breathing so heavily and Aâwhora is rocking so much against Tayceâs fingers it makes her momentarily wonder about how sturdy the countertops in their shithole of a flat actually are. Itâs at the point now where Aâwhora is feeling so soaking wet and overstimulated that she canât even form a single thought apart from just fuck , so how she manages to form a sentence Christ only knows.
âMissed getting me like this?â
âLike what, baby, a dripping wet desperate mess?â Tayceâs free hand grips her thigh just that little bit tighter in response. âMissed it so fucking much.â
Her words make Aâwhora shiver with lust, and something inside her curls like a tightly wound spring. She can feel her orgasm building with every passing second but thereâs something different about how it usually feels; itâs all far more intense and all-consuming than normal as if every single one of her nerve endings are buzzing in anticipation. Sheâs completely incapable of speech now, only breathy little moans and needy whines as Tayce keeps whispering into her ear about how perfect she is, how pretty and gorgeous and beautiful, all the while fucking her gently and pulsing her fingers against that spot deep inside her and teasing her clit.
Itâs because of her lack of words that Aâwhora canât give Tayce much of a warning when suddenly her body seems to leap two levels at once and sheâs so dangerously close that all she can do is urgently whisper Tayceâs name before her moans get increasingly louder and louder, her orgasm rips through her, and she swears she comes harder than sheâs ever done before in her life. Everything is throbbing so violently that all Aâwhora can do is let out broken cries into the silent kitchen, completely unable to care about who could hear her. Her orgasm seems to last a few seconds longer than usual and it takes her by surprise, and her body is so racked from it that she needs a couple of seconds to compose herself. She breathes raggedly with her forehead against Tayceâs shoulder, and she can feel the other girl rubbing her back gently with her free hand.
Itâs Tayce who speaks first, her voice humoured as she whispers quietly into the silence and slides her fingers out of her slowly and carefully. âFuckinâ hell, girl. I could feel that.â
Aâwhora has to take two little breaths before she lifts her head off Tayceâs shoulder and replies with the only word she can form. âShit.â
Tayce giggles, and itâs so endearing that Aâwhora feels her heart swell with affection and maybe a little something deeper. Sheâs barely got time to dwell on it before Tayce locks eyes with her, a little sparkle in them as she takes the same two fingers sheâd fucked Aâwhora with seconds ago and wraps her lips around them, sucking them into her mouth before drawing them out and letting her eyes flutter closed. âYou taste so good, fuck.â
At that point, Aâwhora could've just stayed silent. Or responded with something else. Or just pulled Tayce in for another kiss before returning the favour. But no- she has to ruin it by opening her mouth and saying the first thing that comes into her head, a stupid joke thatâs only going to hurt her instead of make her laugh.
âI donât think thatâs something that friends do.â
Tayceâs expression falters and her palms come to rest on Aâwhoraâs thighs. Her gaze is fixed on the floor and there's a small pause before she replies quietly. âWell maybe I donât want to be friends.â
Every cell in Aâwhoraâs body freezes up and sheâs rendered almost motionless at Tayceâs response. She doesnât even care about how desperate she comes across as she replies almost breathlessly. âWhat do you want, then?â
Tayce doesnât meet her eyes. The seconds tick by. Her palms slip off Aâwhoraâs thighs and come to rest at her sides.
âTayce?â
Tayce takes a step back, casts her gaze to the ceiling this time. She seems to be looking everywhere but at her. Aâwhora watches her press her lips together, bring her arms up to wrap herself in a hug. The silence grows longer and more ominous, storm clouds hanging over the two of them that are heavy with rain.
And then it dawns on Aâwhora that what Tayce must be feeling is all-encompassing regret. She regrets it all. Everything she said, everything they just did. Sheâs dug herself into a hole that she canât escape from.
So Aâwhora helps her out of it. The tears flood her eyes as she hops down from the kitchen counter, snatches up her clothes with her face burning from embarrassment, and her hot tears run down her face almost as fast as she dashes back to her room. Sheâs completely humiliated, and sheâs not going to stick around to talk things out.
Tayce doesnât yell after her, doesnât come back down the corridor for her, doesnât stand at her door and knock and ask to be let in. Instead there is only silence and darkness, and all Aâwhora can do is lie down on her bed and sob into her pillow, trying her hardest not to make a sound but wondering if she's failing even at that.












