I am physically fit. not wearing top actually holding a "baby". it looks like my bust size is 36. surroundings is a bit mess. all things are falling. i went to a bridge topless but still holding a baby and i saw the bridge its starting to fall down i saw my cousin he was laying at a "falling down bridge" i told him let's move out. I started to run go to the safest place while holding the baby "someone" A pastor envelops me with a thing he envelops me with a "red balabal", it is warm covered me and the baby and I feel secured, protected, loved.

Baby- my ministry, my family

falling down bridge- circumstances, trials, situation

someone- representative, counselor

red balabal- symbol of protection

present days way back 2018 or 2019 this is not a dream one night there was a mentoring session at our church the pastor had a game for us questions that we will answer but there are choices Q&A after we tabulated the score individually that score will be us in the future the score that i got was sakto and the meaning of my score was "pastoral leadership".. and if it is God's will God will surely guide me. Tita Conching and I had the same meaning of score and actually she's having an outreach at Calilauan, Solana.

I joined her in the outreach because our pastor told me if i could song lead there and i grab that opportunity the days had pass and there were days that i was craving for more at that moment i resigned at my work because its not good enough to sustain my needs and actually waiting and praying for my work at that moment.

"before the mentoring session happened I joined the outreach so, I think its not coincidence that my score was about leadership there is a purpose in everything its not accident na parehas kami ni tita conching ng score kasi bago paman nagkaroon ng mentoring naattend na kami ng outreach. Sabi pa nila hindi imposible mangyari kasi they both go to outreach. Sa totoo lang parang duda pa ako kaya ko ba? talaga ako? introvert ako, Lord I question myself Lord, I am sorry if I questioned my self. "I am your creation fearfully wonderfully made by you God".

years had passed...... i don't have any work

this rejection from work i know that you had other plans for me.

Plans to prosper me and not to harm me plans to give me a hope and a future....

"Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all those things shall be added to you."

Redirect my path.

Lord bring back this desire more of you less of me.

lord help me to bring back this passion.

Help me to bounce back.