Field Notes 002: The Meeting That Never Came
Time Observed: 2:45 PM Location: The quiet void of Google Calendar Event: 1 (canceled) what could've been the only time I'll feel like a contributing member of society instead of a glorified Slack ghost with nice eyebrows. Energy: Betrayed. Available. Slightly too available.
Behavioral Notes: – Received a “let’s reschedule” email. – Did not cheer. – Stared into space for 6 minutes. – Reopened calendar. – Closed it again. Felt nothing and everything. – Whispered “thoughts?” into the abyss.
Emotional State: – Light grief for lost structure – Mild resentment toward coworkers with busy schedules – 11% hopeful someone will Slack “quick sync?”
Reflex Response: Wanted to fill the gap with something productive. Instead opened Tumblr. Wrote a Field Note. Yet again. Considered inventing a fake meeting called “Brain Sync (solo).” Conclusion: Meetings used to interrupt my day. Now they are the day. Without them, I spiral, but make it calendar-shaped.
