#fransisco garupe

I thought I was being sneaky with those tags! I didn’t think that anyone would read it, they were just my ramblings upon seeing sad but beautiful Kostya!

Fransisco ended their relationship. The head priest began planting seeds of doubt inside Garupe’s mind about his ‘sinful’ relationship with Konstantin Levin—a wealthy landowner—because a priest shouldn’t devote such time to a partner, nevermind one so greedy. Garupe knows that Kostya is anything but greedy, it’s not his fault that he’s a wealthy man. He goes into the fields to tend to the crops with his workers!

But Garupe feels lust for Kostya. They do not live together and have never done more than simple kissing but Garupe wants more; he wants to feel Kostya’s coarse hands all over his body and taste him and be loved in every way by him. And he shouldn’t want that. They aren’t married. It isn’t right, it isn’t pure. And Garupe must do right by god.

So Garupe leaves Kostya. Both men weep at the separation in which Kostya begs Garupe not to go and offers marriage to save them but Garupe can’t. It’s like he’s been brainwashed by the church and his mentors to believe that loving another human is impure and wrong—perhaps they’ve used some rather harsh and violent ways to impart their teachings on young Garupe? Whips and forced fasting and ice baths.

Kostya is utterly heartbroken. Garupe is too but he believes that he’s done this for the best but he’s forced into heavy work at the church to keep him occupied. Maybe another priest, one of Garupe’s actual friends, comes in search of Kostya and tells him what’s been going on, and Kostya goes to the High Priest (idk how this stuff works!) to investigate the goings on at the local church and finds them to be horrid! Poor Garupe is starving and neglected and being treated like a prisoner! Kostya saves him and takes him back to his home and nurses him back to health!