â oh , fuck you. â the smile melts wider across trish â s face. she â s still half - a - hellcat , cowl off and hair a short , messy shock of tousled ash blonde and smudged eyeblack. how different it must be for jess to look at her like this , just like herself half in makeup when they were young in a dressing room , and see that now she â s ⌠happy ? maybe. trish doesn â t know if she â s happy. she wants to be. maybe the difference between them is she knows without her jess will let everything jade her to shit and then she â ll go hermit and die alone of extreme alcohol poisoning or psoriasis. without jess , she â ll drop right into a falseness that is nearly unbearable to look at and then wither back into addiction , be it relapsing back into her eating disorder or pills , pills , pills , and then die eventually ( finally , mother will say ) both beautiful and relatively young. an age that would preserve her forever in the minds of everyone and leave her that tragically talented woman who never met her potential â another Marilyn Monroe. that never feels comfortable. she â s grateful they don â t have to be without each other â not right now , anyway. she props her sharp chin into the heel of her hand and smiles a toothy , fanged smile. â no. no. that is your shirt. â there is a lot of your 90 â s grunge phase happening on that flannel , jess. it â s awful. and you should take it off because it â s fashionably offensive. â gesturing like a true New Yorker with that perfect manicure. â â here. â let me help ? â the question is innocent. not the trish definition of the old days , the one where â innocent â was sweet but heavily , heavily suggestive. this version means she â s asking it innocently â but mostly , if she â s being honest , because her hands are cold and she wants to shove them under jess â s awful flannel.Â