You tell me it's about time to give you an answer And the things is, I don't know what I want You tell me it's okay That you can wait Until i am ready But the way you're acting when you're with me Is entirely a whole 'nother galaxy When we're together with your friends And i just don't know Who you really are And what you really want From me Is it companionship? Friendship? A relationship? Sweethearts? It seems that just when I have just about had it with your ways Of pushing me away And act as if i'm trash As if i'm Nothing As if i'm Not worthy to look at You pull me again saying "I love you" Or "You might just exactly be the one for me all this time" Please... I beg of you... What is it that you really want from me? Because the way you act Is completely different Please tell me You are confusing me Making my head run in circles What am I to you? But maybe the more important question is... What are you to me?

“No I’ve had it... I’m tired. I just can’t seem to get through you anymore... Just when I’m about to get to know the real you you just push me away... Like I mean nothing to you...Like I don’t mean ANYTHING to you”, I stated. I turned away. I gotta leave... And FAST. Before I change my mind. Before he mixes me up again... I’m tired of this cycle. Of this constant push and pull... It feels like I’m getting the short end of the stick... I don’t deserve this...this toxicity.

what’s suffocating me right now are these tears dead at night as I wail and sob and sigh to the moon I cry looking at the stars telling them about how lonely I am There scars on my arms and bruises on my skin could never compare to the scars of broken friendship as my best friend refuses to talk to me anymore or the bruises of how my family makes me feel so fucking useless or how I’m never going to be anyone’s precious salt. Sometimes I wish how I wish I never existed in this God forsaken world because because who am I to people but a worthless piece of shit? Who am I? but a person who is needy as I say lines like No please stay Sorry I’m the one at fault Please don’t leave me I’m the one that’s stupid Please love me for who I am I’m the one that was wrong all along I’m sorry I’m sorry I ’ m    s o r r y I’m not worth anyone’s salt