#found writings

That I apparently started so freaking long ago xD. It’s not really a story, but more like a oneshot/fanfic thing. BBRAE of course.

And because it’s me, it’s fucking SAD! I love reading happy things but can only seem to write sad things xP Oh well~

Anyways, its not finished. Maybe I’ll finish it today/tomorrow. I have to work tonight so it could take a minute.

This will be my challenge to myself I guess. Haven’t written anything in so long, lets see if I still know how. I wanna think it’s like riding a bike, but writing if freaking HARD. I haven’t been developing, I’m been deteriorating lol. Maybe that’ll change. Hopefully that’ll change~

I’ll post it if I finish it. Warning, I think it’s a songfic though. It sounds like a song I’ve heard and I wouldn't be surprised if it was a songfic. Songs inspired a lot of things I wrote.

darkness was falling and you were so close

i looked in your eyes - but all i saw was smoke

your lips were moving - but no words could i hear

my heart was breaking and my head felt cloaked

  i looked past your shoulder and as i silently wept

your indifference was chilling, no charity left

as sun filtered through blinds - pulled shut for a reason

i remembered a time when your words were more pleasing

 closer - closer - closer still

i need the contact – but you’re nowhere near

the sound you make is like a tingling in my ears

i look at you intently but you are just clear

 why do i think of you - when you consider me no longer?

and if reality bites - why do dreams bite harder?

restless, yet weary and tired of the game

my thoughts always come back and are always the same

 closer - closer - closer still

i’m in need of contact but you aren’t here

i cry out loud - but there is only chill

Looking up, all I could see was you

Your expansive sky cast over my turbid ocean

And I longed to taste more than your mere reflection

But like mother earth and father sky

There must always be space between us

Space for air, life

For my tides and waves

Your light and storms

And to protect us from the claustrophobic darkness

Of our love

For how many times did I try to pull you near

Only to be spiked by your lightning and tremble in your thunder

And in sharing my depths, how I almost swallowed you

So much of what we could know about each other

Was only surface and reflections

With only the moon's caress of our souls to share

Now, as we grow apart, I hope

That when I look upon you now, I will look across

Rather than above

And instead of living in your shadow

You will see the light of my soul