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LEON KENNEDY X F!READER ✶ 18+ ✶ WIP!
FIC TAGS: divorced, exes to lovers, angst, secret child, hurt/comfort, forced proximity, miscommunication.usual re violence, human & medical experimentation, typical re experimentation on children, cultish themes ❗ FULL INFO ON MASTERLIST PAGE ❗
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✶ CH. WORD COUNT: 2,333
A/N: *standing emoji* So, one depressive episode later, I bring you this. I may be slow, but I'm also stubborn and I didn't spend all that time lucid daydreaming this entire plot beginning to end to just stop there. Anyway, I'm sorry, here's some angsty Leon.
Leon
“Beauregard Jessop. Born and raised in Mosston, Georgia. Served five years for dodging the draft in ‘71…”
Leon stands against the antique dresser in his room, arms crossed as he listens to Hunnigan swiftly deliver a request for information on your current hosts.
While suspicions on the unassuming couple were low at the moment, it wouldn’t hurt to gather as much as he can on the locals – especially with the window of time shrinking with every passing minute. The team had already begun to gather additional information on any other locals in the area that Agent Grier had not already started on.
“...married to Renee Devereaux shortly after his release. Looks like they’ve mainly made their living in farm-to-table products. Devereaux worked in interior design before retiring early. No next of kin on either side and it seems like they travel once a year on average.”
“Livin’ the dream,” Leon mutters, taking in the muted blue theme of his lodgings.
From where he stands, he can see through the window of his balcony door where the darkness of the rural countryside stretches endlessly save for the porch lights of a small, shingled home to the right of the property that had not been visible upon arrival – per Hunnigan’s live research, the home is the original structure where the Jessops mainly reside even after the current home had been mostly planned and built by Beau himself. Both buildings are connected by a short breezeway for easier access.
“No alarms on my end, but keep an eye out if there’s anything else I can assist with.”
“You got it.”
There’s a long pause in which Leon assumes Hunnigan is done reporting for now, but Leon stops as he pushes off the dresser when her voice cuts in again.
“Is everything all right with…”
Hunnigan’s professionalism is less evident as she trails off and Leon is about to ask what she means when his eyes dart toward the folder he’d set on the bedside table.
Thankfully, she hadn’t given him the lecture he had dreaded after sobering from the reveal. The partnership has been going long enough now that casual check-ins weren’t exactly out of the norm, but this new reality is something Leon isn’t quite ready to tackle when he hasn’t fully absorbed it himself.
“We’ll talk tomorrow.”
Another bit of silence, and then: “Understood. Goodnight, Leon – and get some rest for once.”
“Fat chance. Later, Ingrid.”
The silence stretches as his gaze remains fixed on the folder. Leon’s ears strain to identify any movement on the other side of the wall opposite him and he even crosses the space past the four-poster bed to close some distance between himself and the wall. Still nothing.
Clearly the exhaustion had gotten to you, and it takes the reminder that Chris and Claire were vigilant from a distance to discourage him from stepping out onto the balcony just to be certain.
Leon lingers a moment longer before finally allowing his feet to carry him to the edge of his bed, where he remains standing and staring at the contents of his side table. As uncharacteristically comfortable as the lodgings are in this particular mission, sleep doesn’t call to him. It never did.
And why is he stalling? All it would take was a simple tug at the corner of the manilla folder to reveal its contents.
With all the horrors and evils he’s faced over the last few years, none have ever invoked the raw ache in the pit of his stomach that accompanied accountability and time lost. All the faces of those he’d failed in his lifelong sentence haunted him as soon as his eyes shut, but the face of a child he’d never met made sleep damn near impossible.
The promise of some negligible fraction of closure is what encourages him to get over himself and pull the stack of memories out.
Leon looks through a mix of developed photos and polaroids, the edge of the mattress slowly giving in to his weight beneath him. It seems that you chose photos that barely featured you, if at all, and Leon is thankful only because it would merely add to the sting spreading from his gut.
The first few are of Stella through various stages of infancy, innocent and ignorant of the world around her…and beautiful.
The very top of the stack holds one of the few with you featured in it, holding a sleeping newborn on a hospital bed and leaning down to rest your cheek against hers while a team of fellow ER friends form a protective barrier at either side of your bed. Leon recognizes Liv immediately among them, her eyes red like the rest of them from what Leon can assume are tears.
The baby pictures that follow are exclusively of Stella.
One with her peering up at her crib’s mobile with wide eyes; an unmistakable awareness in them as she reaches up with two tiny hands,
Another a few months later: a summer pool day with Stella in a canopied float, wearing a bucket hat and large sunglasses over a scrunched button nose as she flashes a gummy smile. Leon recognizes your hand in the frame holding the float still as baby Stella grips your thumb and it makes his lips quirk if only for a moment.
Another at a birthday party with a few of your coworkers, clearly at her mobile stage of development as one nurse friend holds Stella’s tiny hands while she’s lifting a foot to try and step forward.
Leon’s jaw sets and he quickly flips through the stack to weed out the baby pictures. He tells himself it’s for the sake of time; that he’ll look through the milestones he’s missed later when he wasn’t so on edge.
The more recent ones didn’t even help the matter.
Class photos where Stella is easily identifiable among her taller classmates. More birthdays that he’s missed. Grade school assemblies and awards that he’s missed. Camping trips. Field trips. Museum trips.
They’re all a blur as he flips through them without lingering on any because he’s greeted with the same face evolving through time that they would never get back. There was no denying that Stella was his; timing aside, certain quirks in her expression – especially unserious candid moments – reflected remnants of an absent father. Any sense of pride at her accomplishments are quickly overshadowed by knowledge of his own absence until shaking hands flip the stack upside down with a sharp intake of breath through his nostrils.
Leon wonders how on earth he’s supposed to face her if he can barely stomach looking at photos of her. Maybe…just maybe…it wouldn’t hurt as much once he knows she’s safe and he can properly atone for the time lost.
He leans forward and rests his elbows on his knees while he holds a stack of drawings limply in both hands, his thumb brushing over a faded pink fingerprint left behind unintentionally. Leon can’t make sense of what Stella tried to convey in some of the pieces; many seemed to be colorful swirls or warped trees that looked more like Dr. Seuss-inspired acid trips. Stella seemed to favor the color blue or underwater settings with schools of fish, notable corals, and jellyfish whose tentacles filled the entire page.
There were your average stick figure family drawings with the appropriate labels, but in lieu of a notable father figure, the letters that spelled out “L-I-V” felt worse than the bullet he’d taken in the shoulder as a rookie.
Leon holds no ill feelings for the woman; if anything, he owes her for all the years he’s missed, but he would constantly look back on what he might have been willing to admit or even save if Liv hadn’t been mediating that day.
It was humbling to recognize shortly after that blaming your best friend was a cop-out when he’d built your foundation on naive, blind hope that lying would prevent the inevitable outcome.
That’s enough for now.
Leon sets the stack on his nightstand and runs his palms through his face with a low groan. The air is heavy and suffocating despite the spacious room and it’s all it takes for Leon to push himself off the edge of the bed and make his way out of the bedroom, not bothering to shut the door behind him.
Wall sconces dimly light the hallway with a warm glow as he pads along the Victorian runner toward the stairs, where darkness engulfs the foyer below save for a table lamp and some additional light filtering through the east wing of the home. He follows it to a pair of frosted double doors that lead into a cozy parlor that functioned as both a sitting area and game room.
Another pair of double doors on the opposite side are half-open and lead out to the wraparound porch, offering a view of the breezeway and stone pathway leading toward a one-story cottage.
Leon’s ears perk as footsteps round the corner from the closed half of the exit, and a familiar portly figure jumps at the sight of him, nearly dropping a stack of linens that had briefly blocked his vision.
“Shit! Are ya tryin’ ta kill me??”
Leon hesitates before moving to help Beau with the pile, but he jerks away with an annoyed grunt and sets it on a card table.
“Did y’all need something?” He asks with the enthusiasm of a criminally underpaid food service worker.
“You’re not the hospitality guy here, are you?” Leon asks bluntly.
“Nope. That’s all Nen.” Beau’s thumbs loop under his overalls and his mustache tilts this way and that, his eyes fixed unflinchingly on Leon as if daring him to give the B&B a shitty review that very second. “I do all the housekeepin’ stuff while she gets her beauty sleep so she can deal with y’all.”
“Well, I won’t make you ‘deal’ with me. I just need some fresh air.”
“S’what the balcony’s for.”
Leon closes his eyes for a beat, then sighs and turns with the intention of heading out the front door, stopping when Beau’s attitude takes a backseat long enough to ask, “You good, son?”
“Fantastic.” He doesn’t even bother masking the annoyance in his tone, but he sighs a second later. “Long travel day.”
“Mm.” Beau doesn’t sound convinced. “Well, spirits ain’t included with lodging but seein’ as you look like you seen one…”
Leon turns to look at him with some surprise as Beau makes his way back out. He follows him out to the porch where a rattan furniture set offers comfort with a view of the orchard, now bathed in scattered outdoor lighting creating a path toward where he sat.
Sitting out here with his thoughts seemed a good enough way to spend the night. A soft clink draws his attention back toward Beau, emerging from the cottage with a pair of tiny glasses in one hand and a bottle in the other.
Leon raises a brow. “Is that homemade?”
Beau snorts. “Depends. You with the feds?”
“Uh…no?”
His host stops dead in his tracks, brows drawn together as he narrows his gaze on Leon. “Well I was jokin’ but now I ain’t so sure.”
“I’m not!” Hands come up in defense. “I’m just wondering now if you’re the one who’s trying to kill me.”
“Tsk. It won’t kill you, but it may hurt if you’re a pussy. Didn’t take you for a pussy.”
“You’re giving me mixed signals here, Beau.”
“Since ya don’t think I’m the hospitality guy, I’ll be happy ta grab a goddamn bottle of Jameson –”
Leon holds his palm out and Beau hands him a glass that wouldn’t even be able to fit a socially acceptable shot of whatever. The amount that Beau pours is crystal clear and smells like jet fuel and Leon may have hesitated had the man not poured one for himself.
“I don’t whip this out unless Nen’s real mad at me for somethin’ and that’s rare. Figured you’re in hot water with your lady up there.”
“What makes you think that?” Leon asks a little too abruptly.
“Girl’s barely looked at you. Wants a separate room an’ all.”
“That’s just what she prefers.”
“Yeh. What she prefers.”
“And if that’s what she wants, I’m fine with it.”
“Mhm.”
“Is everyone around here this nosy?”
“Son, everyone in the south is nosy but you won’t catch me gossipin’ about your issues. You’re just passin’ through and tomorrow’s a new day anyway. I’ll forget all about ya in a week.”
Beau downs the shot and lets out a cough but hardly reacts as he leans back against the porch railing. Leon twists the glass here and there, staring at its contents and sighing.
“It’s, uh…complicated.”
“Always is, but a piece of advice from a guy who’s seen plenty’a shit – s’only gonna be as complicated as you let it be.”
Leon narrows his eyes at Beau, but he isn’t going to argue with a stranger who couldn’t even grasp just how complicated he himself made things. Instead, he avoids further comment by downing the sample sized alcohol only to immediately regret his decision.
The burning sensation clung to his throat as it traveled down; even if he spit it out, there was no escaping the fire that spread all the way down his chest, making his eyes water and clearing Leon’s sinuses so much he was sure he could hear colors.
His fist slammed against his own chest as he coughed. Once. Twice.
Goddamn, when did it stop?
Beau simply watches and waits for Leon to get his shit together as second by agonizing second ticks by. When he finally straightens, Leon wishes his looks could kill.
“See? Y’ain’t dead. First one’s always the hardest.” And he pours another. It takes only a few silent counts before Leon wordlessly accepts it.
At least the second time around, he was too numb to care.
→ ✶ CH 10
A/N: It's a bit short because I was going to split this into Leon/Reader POVs, but I feel like it kind of takes away from Leon's moment here. I hope you guys liked it! I promise the next won't take two months. It won't even take a week!
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