#formless blob

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I am this formless blob

So I just sent this to my friend.

So basically June is a hard time for me mentally. I am out as ace to my friend, mom and sister (my friends being more excepting than my family). I wasn’t exposed to different gender and sexuality until late in my highschool experience because I come from a very religious family. So the thought that I was anything other than a girl was unthinkable. However I never cared if I wore ‘girl’s’ or ‘boy’s’ clothes or if I was particularly feminine. I’m just me and that was fine. People called me a girl and she/her which is fine but that’s doesn’t feel 100% right awaymore.

So last June I decided that it was time to find myself a label (because that’s what you do right?) But in the end I was drowning in labels like demi girl, nonbinary, genderfluid and many more. In the end none felt right and I had a panic attack due to the stress I put on myself to find a label. (Later I was in my costume design class and I mentioned that I had a binder. My friend came up to me after class, they were excited and told me they were gender fluid and when they asked how I identified I just said ‘I’m happier not thinking about it’ and hoped I didn’t confuse them)(Last semester my friend from the same class asked the same question and I shrugged saying I didn’t care.)

Today I was going to post a picture captioned as ‘ your local nonbinary pal’ as a way to come out to my friends. The label was the closest thing I have found so I was just going to slap it on and be done with it. But then I watched Dan’s video and he expressed how lables felt overwhelming and confining to him. I genuinely feel like this was the first time somebody said EXACTLY how I felt about labels.

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