When Giving Becomes Losing: My Journey of Forgetting Myself
Life has a way of teaching us lessons in the most subtle — and sometimes painful — ways. One of the biggest regrets I carry is how often I gave too much of myself to others. I poured my time, energy, and love into people and situations, believing that selflessness was the purest form of kindness. But somewhere along the way, I forgot me.
I always thought that giving more meant being a better friend, sibling, partner, or coworker. I believed that the more I sacrificed, the more people would value me. And for a while, it seemed to work. People came to me for advice, for help, for comfort. I became a safe space for everyone — except for myself.
But there’s a hidden cost to this kind of giving. It’s not just the sleepless nights or the missed opportunities; it’s the erosion of your own sense of self. When you constantly put others first, you slowly silence your own needs, dreams, and boundaries. Before you realize it, you’re running on empty, wondering when someone will notice you’re tired.
Looking back, I regret not setting boundaries sooner. I regret not saying no when my heart whispered that I should. I regret not reserving enough of my energy for my own healing, growth, and happiness. The truth is, giving is beautiful — but giving to the point of losing yourself is not selfless; it’s self-abandonment.
Today, I’m learning to reclaim myself. I’m learning that it’s okay to say no. It’s okay to take time for me. It’s okay to give, but also to receive. Because I can’t pour from an empty cup, and I deserve the same love and care that I’ve so freely given to others.
To anyone reading this who feels like they’re losing themselves in the process of giving — please know this: you are worthy of your own kindness. Don’t wait until you’re exhausted and resentful to start taking care of yourself. Your needs matter. Your dreams matter. You matter.
Giving is a gift, but you are a gift too. Don’t forget to keep some of your light for yourself.
