#forced hrt

with every punch and kick comes a degrading comment about how I need to work out more, I should carry myself higher, be more dominant

digging into the already purpling bruises with gloved, gelled hands, ignoring me when I start to cry because "this will fix you right up, make you into exactly the man you're meant to be"

when i was 11-12 i talked to my therapist about how i was questioning my gender. after an eval with my doctor they had me see an endocrinologist, who tested my hormones & proceeded to make the entire appointment revolve around my future fertility and puberty (despite me originally going for gender affirming care)

i told the doctor i would not take anything hormonal because i didnt want my body to look different (i was physically androgynous at this time) and she reassured me the medication was entirely nonhormonal and meant to stop "unwanted puberty effects" which i interpreted in a gender affirming way...

i later on discovered that i had been given a hormonal, progestin-based birth control often used in feminization therapy. at no point was i informed of this. prior to taking the medication, i was flat-chested & did not menstruate. after a couple months of taking the medication, both of those factors changed. i would regularly tell my endocrinologist i was not happy with the medication, but she would stress the importance of me taking it. i still doubt if this is forced HRT or not, because the medication is technically a birth control. has anyone else experienced similar? is this forced HRT?

the birth control in question was a depoprovera introject that i was made to take for 4 years, in case anyone has info on this specifically

This is intersexism and transmisia.

take more hormones

whats up with my body

take more hormones

no I wanna know the underlying thing why do I need these hormones

I had to to fight (and still have to) to claim my femininity and my masculinity.

And for some reason a few perisex trans people decided it's ok to shit on us with sentences like "you're not actually trans", " you have an unfair advantage" while others say "i wish i was intersex too so i had an easier transition".

Yes, for some people some parts of a transition might be easier.

But not for all of us. And having to undo what doctors did to a lot of us with unnecessary surgeries on our genitals and forced HRT as kids is not a privilege. It's medical abuse and malpractice.

A baby/child cannot consent to these practices.

I for sure did not and would not have consented.

Even in cases where some of us had the later preferred optics of their bottom parts already forced on them right after birth that doesn't mean they function properly.

I experience pain and/or discomfort most of the time and it gets worse whenever I get an erection. Not that I'm able to have one at all 50% of the time and even then I can only hope it lasts.

To me being intersex is part of my identity and i wouldn't change that if I could. I just wish doctors wouldn't have done what they did to me and that perisex people would stop only talking about or over us instead of talking with us.

We as a group of people don't have it automatically better or worse than others.

We don't have privilege or an unfair advantage over perisex trans people.

We're just people who struggle for freedom and equality like everyone else

So pls, start actually listening to us instead of treating us like shit.

And if you consider yourself an ally to intersex people pls speak up and educate others whenever you see other perisex people being intersexist or simply ignorant.