I'm throwing away my plans for my chest piece. I need my dog tags back. So I'm gonna get them tattooed on. My life is falling apart but they kept me centred. And with then gone. My mind isn't reacting. It's lashing out. I almost lost my best friend last night. Although I'm sure I've done irreversible damage to our friendship. She won't have me as a housemate anymore. Honestly I don't deserve it. I'm a bad person in a bad spot right now. I don't deserve a lot of things. For(n)ever Was a concept I never finished when I met someone very special. Who passed before I could help her save herself.

Hoobastank <3

Still hung on you; your scent, your touch, your love, your personality. You colored my life, turned the pages of each day, stole my heart, danced with me. You showed me your song, the sweet melody of love, the sweet pounding sound of two meant to be. Now when I wake up, I'm empty, alone and broken. I say I'll wait, I'll wait forever, forever until you realize that I didn't ever leave you or get over you; and I never will.

"it's too hard to keep pretending, it's too hard to ignore. i wish that we would go back to what we were before. but i don't think that i love  you anymore, anymore ..."