I found myself dancing I felt my heart break repeatedly, feeling everything My soul dying and being born again I felt pain and happiness I shouted at the top of my lungs and let it all go I felt myself become free I knew I had found light again It was there in my arms embracing me Love and my sense of wonder What was once black and white was now full of color I found myself dancing there one with it all

The other day I woke up at 6am and the light looked so pretty coming through my window that I had to take a picture of how it made my room look. I posted this picture on my Instagram story and I just love it so much. Something about unmade beds and the silence of the early morning. As well, symbolism for a new day beginning. We get to start all over again, have another chance. In a way it feels like a clean slate, for a second the worries of yesterday and tomorrow don’t matter. You’re one with life and you’re happy. I think these are the moments that matter the most, the ones that you’re with yourself and you find beauty and love in the smallest of things and feel large. I read this quote about hope the other day(I’m constantly quoting things) and it said, “but my darling, there’s no such thing as the light at the end of the tunnel. You must realize you are the light.” And that really struck a chord with me. You create your light. If you are always looking towards the light at the end of the tunnel, you’ll always stare at it and never reach it, and if you do, it’s temporary because you’re making it a tangible thing, not a way of life, it’s easy for it fall through your hands and lose grasp. But ah, if you become light, you are limitless. Sending love and light to all of you. ✨

•The alchemy symbol for copper• Copper is ruled by the planet Venus. It is one of the oldest metals and copper metallurgy has flourished in different cultures, including the Middle Eastern, Asian, European, Central & South American and Native American. Copper embodies the nurturing aspect of women and their youthfulness. It is associated with the matters of love & lust, and symbolizes characteristics like charisma, feminine beauty, artistic creativity, affection, caring and balance. It is also considered a healing metal that teaches about living a fulfilling life.

Sometimes I wish that someone would just tell me, "Hey I know you're a very positive person and you handle your shit really well but just in case you sometimes have your weak moments, cause trust me we all do, know that it's okay. Know that I'm here for you, and know that you're not alone in this, ever. You need reminding too."

I honestly feel so genuinely happy and love and it’s not even because I feel like I found myself again, because baby I am a tad bit lost but I am wandering. I am living, day by day for what it is, and I am taking everything I see and learning from it. I am trying to be the best person I can possibly be to myself most importantly and to others and to share that light. At times, I don’t believe in a God but it’s actually always my lack of faith that is continuously renewing my belief in him. I believe that to know love is to know God. And I have found love in myself and in everywhere and maybe that’s all I need right now, to have this reassurance of good energy just radiating from me and all of me. This feeling I have it’s coming from the most genuine most inexplicable part of me, my heart and soul. It is not to feel whole again that makes me feel overwhelmed, it is the feeling of something more than I once felt. To know this feeling and experience something new.