Aug 1
Gender dysphoria has been beating my ass all week. Visiting family rn and ofc now my brain decides it's a great time to feel masc (around my very few extended family members who are trump supporters & mildly homo/transphobic)
We went to a water park the other day and OMG! The amount of gender envy I got from all the men there was INSANE! I've never considered top surgery in my life until now. Like, that's how bad the dysphoria hit. I can't look at myself in the mirror right now. I know I don't want to fully transition because I still feel very attached to my fem side, but HOLY SHIT this week has made me question everything.
The moment we invent shape-shifting, I'm going into debt to get ahold of the tech-
#cadencerambles#flopacrisis#queer#lgbtq+#genderqueer#trans#trans masc#genderfluid#nonbinary#gender nonconforming#gender dysphoria#like okay most of mu family is cool and even queer themselves#I have a trans older cousin!#but my grandfather is a fox news watcher and trump supporter. he loves us all but you know it's still uncomfy#my other cousin is also queer and married her wife in secret cuz she didn’t want our grandpa to know. he still doesn’t know#sigh if I hear she/her one more time I think I might cry#I usually don't care what people call me but this week has been rough!#just one they/them would mean the world to me tbh. a he/him would be fantastic#unfortunately most of my family isn't that progressive-
