#floatorsink

1) fill a large tub up with water

2) prepare large concrete block to be submerged in the water

I wanted a split second , a minute, a hour.

Someone who would listen.

Someone who would understand.

I need maturity not immaturity.

I need a shoulder not a cold one.

I need a hug not a glare.

I needed assurance not silence.

I just wanted someone who can be like yes, I completely understand and I'm here, instead I got

yelled at,worked over at work,scolded,snapped at, AND  AFTER ALL OF THIS PEOPLE JUST THINK

When Its them You have to listen to everything they are saying.

Because they need that ear, that shoulder, that comfort, that love.

but when the knife, or when there is a cloud over  your head,

no one is there.

its like drowning...

And your sinking under and you just want that someone to come and be there but instead they just watch you sink.

But if they were sinking, they would expect you to drop everything and attend to there beck and call.

and I am afraid my loves how can you think or you deserve respect or a ear to listen to you, when you have not cared for my own respect, my mouth , my feelings,or my heart.

So today after everything I just wanted to say thanks, thanks for nothing.

It meant a lot.

I just wanted that shoulder,that ear that love.

Instead I got zilch.

So Thankz

Sincerely,